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[dragged_down]

a few simple things on my mind.

things just can never go as planned.
chino's coming tonight
but of course he missed the bus he was supposed to take
thus cutting two hours off of our time together
not necessarily a huge deal
but two hours mean the world to me
but whatever hes still coming
so i should be grateful for that (i am)

im upset that as happy as i am with him
theres still that random moment where i think of another person
and how it still upsets me, all the shit that happened
drunken apologies mean shit when you dont follow through
i dont want to be with them
sometimes its just hard not to remember everything that was said
and remember how we were such good friends
and you fucked up and i thought things would be okay but obviously theyre not

and as for another friend i thought i had
im upset that you never recognize me as being a friend
i was always the one to try and stay in touch
and when we did hang out we had some rad times
but when you complain about your lack of friends
it hurts my feelings because its like i was never your friend at all
like you forgot i was there at all
i cant always do all the work
so whatever happens happens i guess

im done
just wanted to get somethings off my mind i guess