This is why I can't live alone, haha...
Here is basically a stream of conciousness brought on by questions and comments asked by friends. Also maybe by the combo of Nyquil and music by The Killers.
I'm fairly cautious if you haven't noticed by now
This is a weird juxtaposition
???'s asking me about what I want to do in the future, like where I want to live and stuff and it's making me think about weird shit
and then I'm having a normal convo with ???
hahaha
ugh
I'm getting in one of those introspective moods you know
where you're like "What DO I want?"
it's not actually that simple to decide, kind of surprising actually
I'm not obsessing or anything.
Just thinking
If I had a nickel for every time I wondered what I'd think of myself now, once I'm older I mean.....I'd be rich
yeah
Is it weird that I'm comparing myself to the future me? I feel like that's fucked up
I somehow always have the image of this older and wiser me who has everything figured out....and I'm like...yeah
...how the hell do I get there?
it's like looking at a different person in my mind...but it's me
I feel like I'm making a movie or something, lol
and then I always come back around to a more zen way of thinking....like. Yeah. I need to go through all this stuff in the in-between to get there. But it'll work out.
at least you're alive and have a job, right?
Right. Like I said. i'm not disappointed right now
it's just I dunno
I keep.... I dunno, dwelling on shit that hasn't happened
which makes NO sense
I'm really weird sometimes
I apologize.
...
I feel like I'm looking for approval
but from who?
I have no idea
because I don't put THAT much stock in other people's opinions
some, yes
...but actually that's kind of a lie too
I'm afraid of disappointing people.
but then I'm like who the fuck are they? if it's good enough for me, why should I care about anyone else?
but then, IS it good enough for me? Am I satisfied with settling?
ALL THESE QUESTIONS
sorry
again
My head's wack tonight
I need to not live alone
Sometimes it pisses me off that people really CAN'T ever understand each other
it's like a sick joke
ha ha, that's humanity
people are such interesting things and yet it's also so infurating
I guess you can't have it both ways
For sure.
I'm too uptight.
I need a shower.
I'm fairly cautious if you haven't noticed by now
This is a weird juxtaposition
???'s asking me about what I want to do in the future, like where I want to live and stuff and it's making me think about weird shit
and then I'm having a normal convo with ???
hahaha
ugh
I'm getting in one of those introspective moods you know
where you're like "What DO I want?"
it's not actually that simple to decide, kind of surprising actually
I'm not obsessing or anything.
Just thinking
If I had a nickel for every time I wondered what I'd think of myself now, once I'm older I mean.....I'd be rich
yeah
Is it weird that I'm comparing myself to the future me? I feel like that's fucked up
I somehow always have the image of this older and wiser me who has everything figured out....and I'm like...yeah
...how the hell do I get there?
it's like looking at a different person in my mind...but it's me
I feel like I'm making a movie or something, lol
and then I always come back around to a more zen way of thinking....like. Yeah. I need to go through all this stuff in the in-between to get there. But it'll work out.
at least you're alive and have a job, right?
Right. Like I said. i'm not disappointed right now
it's just I dunno
I keep.... I dunno, dwelling on shit that hasn't happened
which makes NO sense
I'm really weird sometimes
I apologize.
...
I feel like I'm looking for approval
but from who?
I have no idea
because I don't put THAT much stock in other people's opinions
some, yes
...but actually that's kind of a lie too
I'm afraid of disappointing people.
but then I'm like who the fuck are they? if it's good enough for me, why should I care about anyone else?
but then, IS it good enough for me? Am I satisfied with settling?
ALL THESE QUESTIONS
sorry
again
My head's wack tonight
I need to not live alone
Sometimes it pisses me off that people really CAN'T ever understand each other
it's like a sick joke
ha ha, that's humanity
people are such interesting things and yet it's also so infurating
I guess you can't have it both ways
For sure.
I'm too uptight.
I need a shower.