My Life
I remember why I hate summer now...I never have anyone to hang out with and i spend my days babysitting my brothers for free...i don mind the babysitting but it sux that i cant blow off ANY steam...I was hoping i'd get a boyfriend this summer, but the one guy i was talking to just basically "broke up" with me before we were even going out...he said i'd be better off with someone closer to my age and then he told me to talk to this kid from northbridge...i'm so sick of this shit...I just want someone to talk to who has a similar "disease"...thats basically what being gay has turned into now. I don't even want to be gay anymore...I just want to be normal...I wouldnt even care if no one in school knew me, I'd be happy to just fit in for once...it wouldnt be so bad if i had someone to connect with, but the only boyfriends iv had only want sex and they dont listen and they dont care, so ihave nothing in common with anyone...i don know what to do, i just need someone who knows what im going through, and its been two years since i came out and i still havent foudn anyone to even talk to face to face...how much longer do i have to wait, i don know if i can take much more of this...so sick of being me...I'm so...lost? i dunno...
later
steve
later
steve