99 + 1 Times I love you [One-Shot]
Title: 99 + 1 Times I love you
Author: do_s_arashilove
Pairing: YamaChii
Genre: romance / angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Suddenly Chinen starts to tell Yamada that he loves him. But Yamada can't take that for real, so he rejects it everytime!
Note: Here will be an unexpected ending! (Forgive me my spelling-errors. >.<)
99 + 1 Times I love you
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„I love you!“
„Well...eeh?“
„I love you Yama-chan“, said the little cute looking guy and focused Yamada like he were an alien. What accepted the boy? Should I answered: >Yah thanks!< I mean...well we stand in front of a huge baseball-place and actually it is the time that we do our interview, but because of Chinens sudden words, I can't think clear anymore. “Yah..thanks Chinen, but now we are here at the hugest baseball-place in Toukyou, just to-” (...)
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“Oh come on...that wasn't the right place for that Chinen”, mumbled Ryosuke and tried to made Chinen look at his face, but the younger boy wouldn't do so and so he keep going on with his talking: “I don't like that either, ya know...I mean that jokes-”
“Yama-chan that wasn't a-”
“You know how often I hear those pesky sentence?!” Yamada didn't realized Chinens glance, he was looked down with a really sad face.
They went upstairs and the brown-haired opened my door.
“Mum is not here today, she went to a Gala..Jaa~ we are alone today,ne!” Yamada laughed.
Silent...
Ryosuke raised a eyebrow and turned to Chinen, he couldn't stand it, if Chinen were quiet, he got the feeling that he felt not okay and so Yamada moved forward him and tried to looked in to his eyes. “Ne Chinen, why did you want sleep over my place...you didn't told me the reason for your suddenly reaction, hmm?!”, asked Ryosuke to lift the mood up, because he began to felt uncomfortable and that was, what the older boy hate the most.
His best friend smiled lightly before he hugged him and pushed his small body to Yamadas. A strange feeling came up and he couldn't do anything, in state standing there and let Chinen be near him. "Yama-chan...I really love you~", whispered the black-haired and the brown-haired pulled him away in a soft way. "Don't tell me that is your reason?!" Yuri laughed and shook his head. "Iie~ it was just a joke!"
Somehow Ryosuke felt relieved and stroked his hair. "Baka!"
It was a nice night they spend together. Yamada had the feeling, that behind Yuris brightly smile was something..
something like a untold feeling...
something what Ryosuke won't to know and so he didn't asked his little squirrel-ish friend in the early morning hour.
After that night Yuri began to change, it wasn't like everyone noticed it, to told the truth it was only Yamada who seemed to recognized it.
The younger and small boy was often around the other band members, he talked a much more than usual and he really showed his best side in interviews, photo shootings and by appearances.
There wasn't a sharp-mouths Yuri!
There wasn't a bad-mood Yuri!
There wasn't a crybaby Yuri!
All that Yuris eemed to be gone and that was, what Yamada scared a bit, because he really loved those sides of Yuri.
And instead to those sides, there came a new Yuri, a Yuri who told him everyday, how much he loved Yamada.
47 times told Chinen Yamada his love-feeling in so much differnt ways.
One time he used flowers, some other times he did it very impersonal with a lot of sparkling emotion-mails, another time he brought him a manga called >I love you< and sure he did it also very traditionally from face to face and every time he did so, the brown-haired got annoyed by those confessions.
Ryosuke couldn't heard that words anymore, he really began to hated it so much.
It was the same way everyday, since that baseball-interview.
Chinen said 'I love you' to him and Yamada rejected him. At the beginning he cared about Yuris feelings and did it very gently, so gently a rejection could be, but the more Chinen spoke these words, the more hurtful was Yamada.
He sighed loudly a he lay his head back and closed his eyes. It was such a nice feeling to not heard those words today.
I wonder what Chinen did today? He didn't showed up yesterday at music station and well today...he isn't here either!, thought the brown-haired and opened his eyes as his lost band-members entered the room., but still there was no sign of Chinen.
“Well it was so great yesterday...I really loved our performance”, laughed Yuto ad starched his upper body with a loud groan.
Ryutaro nodded and on his face appeared a sorrow-glance, while he said: “I wished Chii-nii was there yesterday, he really would loved our performance too!”
Yamada recognized that Yabu shook his head lowly,liked he wanted to stop Ryutaros talking.
The brown-haired got up and walked toward his friends, the other smiled slightly in his direction.
“Well does anybody know where our little squirrel is?”
Silent...
A really strange silent...like nobody wanted to told him about-
“Well Yama-nii..here is a letter for you!”, said Ryutaro and broke the overwhelming silent. Ryosuke raised a eyebrow and looked a bit confussed about the envelope in the youngest-member hands. “A letter...who should write me a letter-”, he stopped as he read the name on the envelope and he sighed so hard.
Softly he opened that envelope and began to read the letter:
Yamada Ryosuke...
I love you, I love you, I love you (...)
He wasn't dreaming...50 times I love you were written there. 50 times of that sectense he really couldn't bear with anylonger. 50 times of unsaid feelings were written down there...Yamada bat his bottom lip and throw the letter away.
His heart was pounding strongly against his chest and he really began to asked himself, why Yuri did that to him?
It made no sense....
“Such a jerk”, was he hearing and the brown-haired turned around. Every eyepair was looked at him.
“Such a jerk!”, repeated Yuya and took some steps foward, to grip Yamada, but he got held from Yabu. “Let him!”, forced Kota and tried hard to held the older one back, which showed his anger.
“No let me! He didn't even know about...about the truth...I don't let that happend! He deserves to get hit to the ground...that teme!”
“Tzt~”, made Yamada and was about to leaving the practice -room, but before he was able to took a step, he felt a strong pain at his left cheek. With wide opened eyes he looked directly into Takakis brown-wet eyes.
Don't leave like that!”, shouted Yuya and picked up Yamadas collar.
“What is your problem?!”, shouted the younger boy back and tried to get free from Yuyas grip.
“My Problem? Well I told you my problem..I have enough of that stupid lies..so here comes the truth and you better listen carefully! How dare you to throw away Chinens farewell-letter to you! I can't hold it any longer...He will die...What do you think he start to told you his feeling? Why do you think..he talked so much..Why do you think he didn't showed up any more, huu? Did you really think he planed some new confessisons-plans? Did you really believe that?”
Yamada got the next hit and landed on the hard floor. His face was turned down, so noboy was able to caught a look at the tears, which fell down properly. Yuya yelled something again and picking his collar for the second-time, but as he saw that over Yamadas red cheek flowed a lot of silver-tears he stopped his attack.
“Why..why...d-did you do that?”, sobbed Yuya and pulled Ryosuke up on his feet. The other boy was shivering so much, that he hold himself on Yuyas arms.”Why?”
“B-because..I..I don't want him to leave me!...I..don't want him to go away from me”, cried Yamada and lower his glance.
“What?”, asked Yuya and his face was totally puzzled.
Ryosukes heart hurt so much, that he thought he couldn't breath any more and his hands clinging fearfully on the hands of Yuya. “I ...really won't that he go...and I thought...if I reject him every time..he would stay...I thought I can hold him by hating him....I..I really won't be alone...I heard everything as he talked to his father...I heard that he had a cardiac defect...and I also heard that....n-nothing would help.... So...maybe..he would stay by me, when I told him, that I didn't love him...”
Yamadas voice finally broke away and his tears seemed to didn't stop any more.
He didn't knew about his feeling toward Chinen, but as he heard the sentence at the first time, he felt so happy inside his chest, that he started to learn more about that little squirrel and day by day...he felt so much more comfortable at his side and he secretly fell in love with Chinen...
On the back of the letter
Well...what should I tell you...You finally know about it, ne?
Yama-chan I really be so happy to had so much time with you, demo ne...
I'm also very sad..to leave you now...
This is the day of my operation..., I'm sorry for not telling you that, about my operation... because even the doctors say..that my chance is really bad...
Demo you are the one who told me..without trying, we didn't know about our luck!
So I'll try....
My silly heart hurts so much now and I feel my tears coming...
so let us do as I would have moved ..okay?
Maybe...one day...we meet again...and then...I want tell you about my feelings again!
So please wait for that day(...)
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“....”
“..I...love..you..”
“...
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A/N: ahhh so confussing >,< Gomen ne....Huu..I really wanted to write that down
so I hope...well you like it...>,<