[Again, L had been exploring. It was the only method of trying to find a way out...and L wanted out... He wanted to go back. The door opened, and he found himself peering into a strange, multicolored room. The walls and floor faded in and out with various slowly-changing colors--purples, deep blues, light blues, greens, yellows, oranges, reds, and
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[His face buried deeper into his knees, shoulders trembling, teeth grit, and he shook his head against the fabric of his jeans--the only answer he was able to give. There was no way his voice would have held up.]
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Where are you guys? I miss you, and...
[She curls in on herself when she thinks that she might never ever see them again. She trembles all over and squeezes her eyes tightly closed, and she hasn't even noticed L yet.]
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A shame he'll probably never know.
As soon as he walks in, though, he stops just inside the door; leaning heavily against the wall close to him, it turns a deep, dark blue as he begins to sob, heavily and abruptly. The broken feeling from before has returned full-force, and he can't believe that he actually managed to make it a full two years completely alone, without his Mello from here, or even the other Mello, from his own world, to fall back on!
His carelessness in the years leading up to his death were totally and completely on purpose, too - a fact he's not sure he could ever reveal to Mello. What if he hated him for it? What if he already hates him, but is just that brilliant at faking it?
At that thought, Matt's sobs just become more broken, and he finally curls his hand into a fist and starts to pummel the wall.] Goddammit! Fuck you, you stupid mansion! Just ( ... )
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Then he steps into the room that's decidedly not the library, and it all hits him, everything he's been pretending not to feel, for Matt's sake, but for his own, too: the worry, the grief, the guilt. Is Matt stuck in the mansion forever? Mello wanted better for him, should've been able to figure out a way for them to escape, a place they could go where his one damn second wouldn't matter. Now Matt doesn't even have one second, and he's going to have to deal with being dead sometime, and after B--which Mello is still sure was his fault--he's not sure they can handle it. If they can't... he'll be lost. Like he was after that last big fight, and fuck, he hates needing anyone. Spent his whole life making sure he didn't, in fact. But he needs Matt ( ... )
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And the door's gone.
And Mello's standing there, looking utterly miserable as he leans back against the wall, just a few feet away.
Slowly, he makes his way over.] Fucker got us both again, huh?
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Still getting us. [He can see the evidence of Matt's tears, but he won't bring them up directly.] C'mere. [He holds out a hand.]
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What'd it do to you?
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She does start to look somewhat scared and panicked though, as she sees so many people around her, people she knows to be strong, independant people, clearly suffering. And she has no idea what to do.*
Uhh... everyone? D-Do you guys need help or something??
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Go away...
[For anyone to see him like this... Weak, vulnerable... He just couldn't compose himself. He didn't want anyone around... If he were going to break, he wanted privacy.]
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So she doesn't really do much of anything. She just kind of sits there... then reaches over and hugs him, and holds on to him. She doesn't know what else to do... but she has to be there for him. She just... has to.*
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