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I feel as though my feet are in a bucket of already hardened cement. Not the fresh kind because I've been this way for a while. I've been going out a lot though I still feel there's something empty or just missing inside me. Gus and I had some really deep conversations about life and things and he's pretty much where I am. It's pretty damn depressing. It's so hard to look at life and think that everything in the end will be ok. Well... how the fuck am I supposed to know that it will be. I wont be here forever. Nothing is forever.
As of a few weeks ago I am once again a true single person with no strings, no ball and chain, no jealousy. I do miss the good times and loved to think that this is ok. It was very rough at times and it would just pass by like a single cloud overhead in an open sky ready to devour it. It hurts how things end up when it could be such an easy way out than being cut off from a barrel of water in the desert.
as for the musically inclined side of me-
Still listening to the Hardcore and trance for the most of it. I'll throw in some electronica and some Alternative near the end. I'm trying to increase my motivation on either producing and mixing but I felt some loss of it. Gus and I will start making some electronic and 80's sounding music but we gotta get some more equipment. most production will probably be made by me and both of us will seesaw with the vocals. Who know's if it's something worth it. I have my doubts.
well.. been months.. but maybe in a next few months I'll post again. :\
As of a few weeks ago I am once again a true single person with no strings, no ball and chain, no jealousy. I do miss the good times and loved to think that this is ok. It was very rough at times and it would just pass by like a single cloud overhead in an open sky ready to devour it. It hurts how things end up when it could be such an easy way out than being cut off from a barrel of water in the desert.
as for the musically inclined side of me-
Still listening to the Hardcore and trance for the most of it. I'll throw in some electronica and some Alternative near the end. I'm trying to increase my motivation on either producing and mixing but I felt some loss of it. Gus and I will start making some electronic and 80's sounding music but we gotta get some more equipment. most production will probably be made by me and both of us will seesaw with the vocals. Who know's if it's something worth it. I have my doubts.
well.. been months.. but maybe in a next few months I'll post again. :\