5 years.... fcked.... and continues.
And when it hurts for me
I never felt so empty
Then the rain has its way
Falling
Falling
Those summer mornings
You kissed me out of my next dream
Then without warning
It goes away
And then it goes
And then it goes
And then it...goes
Search to find you somewhere
As winds began to sway
Got in my car and just
drive
drive
Those summer mornings
I danced inside your warm embrace
You hear me calling
And now you're gone
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This is currently one of my favorite songs by Andain called Summer Calling.
First fav Mix of this song is by Airwave's Club mix.
Second is the "Breaks Mix" which I'm not sure who did it but is awesome.
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The main reason for this one, as shown as the subject line, but many other reasons and concern will definately devop within you as you read.
It has been FIVE years to this day of my very heavily missed brother Max has been gone. As I type this down, this is all freestyle except for the lyrics, more emotion will engulf me. so bare with me because I am naked now. I am stripped from "heart" to "soul" because this entity no longer lives within me. It has surpassed any type of life. Like and unlike you and me! Because there really is only ONE moment... its not the past, the present or the future. Ever heard of the beginnig saying "There is never a moment.... bla bla bla (who the fuck cares)" or something similar... well... It's the moment of Never. This is how I think of it and it will not be a happy one so enjoy my emotionlessness emotion, carelessly convulsating insane membrane of what has been scientifically been called an Encephalon. As soon as I saw that word I was in a ecstatic awe. which was actually quite recently >X) The encephalon is just one fucked up thing that might have been created by whatever/whoever you beleive it, because (to be honest) it's still irrelevent now or should I say it's relevancy at This Moment. This thing we use could have been some form of deformity or like a tumor which made everything as we see it. who the fuck knows... But i can tell you that it is the most dangerous part of our being. If you don't understand than you're either too "young" in the moment, or whatever it is you think...I'm going to say this to you. I don't care what you think or how you think. I felt I've had this, what you could consider, moral for any unmeasurable amount of time, but then again thats using my tumor.... lol. well I thought that was funny. Didn't you? You could think I'm a bit selfdestructive at this, whatever is considered True, moment. And yet again Self-Destruction is 100% assured, not by me only, but of just what it is... It's like a Rain Falling. Falling. Drops of contaminated essense of life. This is where it gets fucked up.
ok. This Is Mania! If you didn't know... now you know. If you don't know the meaning.. Look it up here . Cuz this is one things everything has. Further on with more desultory. Lets try to go back a moment... cuz this has gone way longer than I have antisipated and continues to digress. Rain... will be going on for (what is supposed to be)forever until our planet has shit itself somehow. But if you wanna get deeper... we gotta focus on one single drop. A drop makes everything living. Without one we have no It at all. Without them we have no family, friends or foes... no meeting or gatherings that presumably could will take place. well you know what...? we are the rain... because there are many of us'. But as soon as you single out a drop and touch it, It disappears. some of us might have more of a volume than other drops but as soon as we get touch, we enter metamorphysis. After one proccess of this has been done, we are forever changed and diluted into something that doesn't make much sence. We'll never be one because of its infinitely mixed up of just a bunch of other morping going on. If you ever want to feel like rain.. I suggest you jump out of plane... NAKED! and see how rain could feel if it feels... maybe it does and we love to be closed off to that option for our own sake of we don't want to "feel" what it's like to be so simple. Try not to feel bad cuz WE ALL try to close everything off and trying to justify in believing that it's "ok". Too bad we are not simple anymore huh? What is the lifespan of a rain drop... few seconds of what we consider to have some sort of a mesurement of time? how could we tell time if this so called planet had no day or night. How about just day, where there are no stars. Since humans been using the stars for quite some time for navigating around this world. Here's an interesting question I just though.... How Long Is Time? on the larger scale.... there isn't any of it. On a smaller scale...I'll compare it to rain... or even better, blinking. The only way we say we have time is because of the system that was created to measure time by day a night. well thats just 24 hours right? hehe. well its Time to let you ponder and simply say WTF or even could say FTW. Don't think about it too long... because we dont have much time and I've been stuck in this moment.
I never felt so empty
Then the rain has its way
Falling
Falling
Those summer mornings
You kissed me out of my next dream
Then without warning
It goes away
And then it goes
And then it goes
And then it...goes
Search to find you somewhere
As winds began to sway
Got in my car and just
drive
drive
Those summer mornings
I danced inside your warm embrace
You hear me calling
And now you're gone
-----------------------------------------------
This is currently one of my favorite songs by Andain called Summer Calling.
First fav Mix of this song is by Airwave's Club mix.
Second is the "Breaks Mix" which I'm not sure who did it but is awesome.
-----------------------------------------------
The main reason for this one, as shown as the subject line, but many other reasons and concern will definately devop within you as you read.
It has been FIVE years to this day of my very heavily missed brother Max has been gone. As I type this down, this is all freestyle except for the lyrics, more emotion will engulf me. so bare with me because I am naked now. I am stripped from "heart" to "soul" because this entity no longer lives within me. It has surpassed any type of life. Like and unlike you and me! Because there really is only ONE moment... its not the past, the present or the future. Ever heard of the beginnig saying "There is never a moment.... bla bla bla (who the fuck cares)" or something similar... well... It's the moment of Never. This is how I think of it and it will not be a happy one so enjoy my emotionlessness emotion, carelessly convulsating insane membrane of what has been scientifically been called an Encephalon. As soon as I saw that word I was in a ecstatic awe. which was actually quite recently >X) The encephalon is just one fucked up thing that might have been created by whatever/whoever you beleive it, because (to be honest) it's still irrelevent now or should I say it's relevancy at This Moment. This thing we use could have been some form of deformity or like a tumor which made everything as we see it. who the fuck knows... But i can tell you that it is the most dangerous part of our being. If you don't understand than you're either too "young" in the moment, or whatever it is you think...I'm going to say this to you. I don't care what you think or how you think. I felt I've had this, what you could consider, moral for any unmeasurable amount of time, but then again thats using my tumor.... lol. well I thought that was funny. Didn't you? You could think I'm a bit selfdestructive at this, whatever is considered True, moment. And yet again Self-Destruction is 100% assured, not by me only, but of just what it is... It's like a Rain Falling. Falling. Drops of contaminated essense of life. This is where it gets fucked up.
ok. This Is Mania! If you didn't know... now you know. If you don't know the meaning.. Look it up here . Cuz this is one things everything has. Further on with more desultory. Lets try to go back a moment... cuz this has gone way longer than I have antisipated and continues to digress. Rain... will be going on for (what is supposed to be)forever until our planet has shit itself somehow. But if you wanna get deeper... we gotta focus on one single drop. A drop makes everything living. Without one we have no It at all. Without them we have no family, friends or foes... no meeting or gatherings that presumably could will take place. well you know what...? we are the rain... because there are many of us'. But as soon as you single out a drop and touch it, It disappears. some of us might have more of a volume than other drops but as soon as we get touch, we enter metamorphysis. After one proccess of this has been done, we are forever changed and diluted into something that doesn't make much sence. We'll never be one because of its infinitely mixed up of just a bunch of other morping going on. If you ever want to feel like rain.. I suggest you jump out of plane... NAKED! and see how rain could feel if it feels... maybe it does and we love to be closed off to that option for our own sake of we don't want to "feel" what it's like to be so simple. Try not to feel bad cuz WE ALL try to close everything off and trying to justify in believing that it's "ok". Too bad we are not simple anymore huh? What is the lifespan of a rain drop... few seconds of what we consider to have some sort of a mesurement of time? how could we tell time if this so called planet had no day or night. How about just day, where there are no stars. Since humans been using the stars for quite some time for navigating around this world. Here's an interesting question I just though.... How Long Is Time? on the larger scale.... there isn't any of it. On a smaller scale...I'll compare it to rain... or even better, blinking. The only way we say we have time is because of the system that was created to measure time by day a night. well thats just 24 hours right? hehe. well its Time to let you ponder and simply say WTF or even could say FTW. Don't think about it too long... because we dont have much time and I've been stuck in this moment.