of Blahness
So school starts for me next week and I'm screwed cause I like to avoid doing hard stuff or any real work really. why do I say this? I'm still not registered cause I haven't paid for last semester cause tech i should be on financial aid but haven't done the last step (if it aint too late to) to have myself be considered for it. Gah..... ah well I'll have about two weeks after classes started to fix up the mess I always put myself in.
Been a pretty crappy new years so far for me. Only positive aspects are all online related stuff. Lot's of fic writing, online friends making, some book reading... Pretty much it. I /was/ going to rant about certain 友達 but then I find out that Pip has been converted to becoming a BSG fan so that made me immensely happy. It's like, finally, someone I can talk to about it intelligently with. Well actually someone to talk to about it period. ^^
Well my immediate goals this weekend are to clean up my area, attempt to do that final step for finaid, and make either vocab lists or a study guid to prep myself for Japanese Four. I think I'm going to try to translate one of my drabbles into Japanese just to see if I can do it. =D
I really want to be a better person, overall. It's just sometimes I think, that it really doesn't matter cause I don't affect anyone else's life too much. Everyone can pretty much live a happy life without me (except maybe one person but that's an entirely different set of problems). But I've accepted this now. I know I'll probably never be in a relationship and I know I'll never been in one's innermost circle. But it's okay cause I know I'm not that great of a person. But I'll do my best to change myself. Really don't mean to be whining about all this, cause I'm not seeking pity or whatever. But I just hate bottling it up and then start crying for no reason in front of people.
So yeah... That's it of the personal side of me.... I'll probably go back to posting various fandom related stuff now. (Sorry none of it's been animanga related but I haven't kept up with anything of late and such..... ^^) And sorry Flist, if I don't reply to some of your posts. I read them but my brain just can't seem to think of anything worthwile to comment to. Coming up next: Tv show ramblings and/or another BSG commentary post.
Been a pretty crappy new years so far for me. Only positive aspects are all online related stuff. Lot's of fic writing, online friends making, some book reading... Pretty much it. I /was/ going to rant about certain 友達 but then I find out that Pip has been converted to becoming a BSG fan so that made me immensely happy. It's like, finally, someone I can talk to about it intelligently with. Well actually someone to talk to about it period. ^^
Well my immediate goals this weekend are to clean up my area, attempt to do that final step for finaid, and make either vocab lists or a study guid to prep myself for Japanese Four. I think I'm going to try to translate one of my drabbles into Japanese just to see if I can do it. =D
I really want to be a better person, overall. It's just sometimes I think, that it really doesn't matter cause I don't affect anyone else's life too much. Everyone can pretty much live a happy life without me (except maybe one person but that's an entirely different set of problems). But I've accepted this now. I know I'll probably never be in a relationship and I know I'll never been in one's innermost circle. But it's okay cause I know I'm not that great of a person. But I'll do my best to change myself. Really don't mean to be whining about all this, cause I'm not seeking pity or whatever. But I just hate bottling it up and then start crying for no reason in front of people.
So yeah... That's it of the personal side of me.... I'll probably go back to posting various fandom related stuff now. (Sorry none of it's been animanga related but I haven't kept up with anything of late and such..... ^^) And sorry Flist, if I don't reply to some of your posts. I read them but my brain just can't seem to think of anything worthwile to comment to. Coming up next: Tv show ramblings and/or another BSG commentary post.