of Blahness

[dizilla]

So school starts for me next week and I'm screwed cause I like to avoid doing hard stuff or any real work really. why do I say this? I'm still not registered cause I haven't paid for last semester cause tech i should be on financial aid but haven't done the last step (if it aint too late to) to have myself be considered for it. Gah..... ah well I'

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[rebeccasama]

One of the good things about college is that you can do things right up until zero-hour. (Believe me, I've done it.)

Also, I think you may be selling yourself short. Everyone matters, and I believe that each of our lives has an effect on someone else's. *gets deep late at night*

[dizilla]

Very true about college. ^^ I just wish I didn't have to do it and have just magically all fixed for me. =P

And yes, I always sell myself short. One of my major flaws. ^^ Seriously don't know where this sense of low self-esteem came from as I have a very loving family. But thank you.

~waves~

[fallenangleliel]

First...what is BSG? o.o

As for your short term goals, they all sound good. Go get'em! RAWR! xD

I really wanna be a better person too... as in my whole I don't wanna just be quiet, and feel that shutting up is the best thing to do. And I think sometimes I want to complain that I don't seem to matter...but I suppose that's what happens when I'm quiet and tend to be forgetable, eh? :/

/salute rebeccasama
Can't help but agree with your friend. Although, I totally understand if you happen to feel that way...just now we need to decide to say "screw that!" and the same goes for anyone who happens to make us feel like we're not worth what we are.

So...I'm thinkin'...perhaps we can work on this "bettering ourselves" together? Whatcha says? ^_^

Re: ~waves~

[dizilla]

BSG = Battlestar Galactica = best frakking sci-fi show ever. =D

Hmm, it would be quite interesting to see you more opinionated. But then again I haven't seen you in such a long time. ^^ (And you're definitely not forgettable)

And I so love the idea of us working on it together! ^__^

[niffly]

Well, you won't become a better person for the others, but for yourself. If you're not okay with yourself, you can't let others be okay with you either. I want to become better too, but then I have this tingling feeling that whispers, 'If you change, you won't be yourself!' which is not true of course, don't listen to me =P
And, well, you do matter!! Everyone does. And, be optimistic, of course you'll be in a relationship when the right time comes (I have the same worries with you, but the right time will come). You are a great person, you just haven't found the right people for you yet.

[dizilla]

=) Changing to improve yourself doesn't mean you're not being yourself.. Just becoming better. ^_^ Thank you for your kind words.

[nunuunuuu]

I used to be really quiet too. Or so I thought for a long time. I realised that was far from the truth when I noticed my penchant for ranting. It was more like I was discouraged from saying and acting the way I wanted to because I was surrounded by a lot of extremely judgemental people who love conformity and image. But that was a while ago when we were all younger and quite stupid. By now we should've learned not just tolerance, but acceptance also, that everyone's a unique snowflake who makes the world more interesting. Anyone who hasn't learnt that... I say faaack off, you pisser. So I let myself out now, you ought to as well, and we should both be as loud as we like and quite proud of it too. The people I click with I cherish, the people I can't seem to get along with just sort of... fade away from my world and everyone's jolly

[dizilla]

Wow. Wasn't expecting a long reply but that's so great. ^_^ I'm not discouraged, but I just really hate conflict especially if I'm the one to cause it. So even though I'm apparently not discreet, I try my best to just make everyone else happy or at least in good spirits. (Which a lot of the time it's so frustrating and hard to do so)

Heheh, it would probably great if I could voice everything.. But I'm such a sarcastic person I'd prolly just push everyone even more away. It's tough, with all my friends away doing their thing. I've tried to make new friends but it just doesn't seem to stick. I'm just their classmate that they tolerate and/or ask questions for. And yes I do maintain the peace. If I had the courage to, maybe I'd move on.

But thank you for your encouragement and thoughts. ^_^