preggers
Okay, Livejournal, so I am pregnant. It is sort of overwhelming and crazy and great and scary and blessed all at the same time. But now I have the luxury of feeling those feelings. This is the second day in over a month that I haven't spent all day, every day, on the verge of throwing up, or actually throwing up, too tired to get out of bed and just dry heaving. I've been just...exhausted. My house is a fucking disaster. I haven't washed dishes in weeks, haven't swept the floor, put away the groceries that have been delivered. I haven't walked the dogs or cooked a meal or even really cleaned up the last vestiges of vomit on the bathroom floor. It has been so, so, so frustrating to literally not be able to function even on the most basic of levels. My hubby has been great. He has walked the dogs every day, cooked every meal, worked like a fucking donkey to make up for the classes that I am unable to give but he can't do everything. He doesn't have time to clean, or the energy either. So I am hoping and praying that this feeling okay lasts. I am sitting here drinking a green smoothie, the first one I have made or had in months and god it feels great.
My diet has been pretty bad, simply because I haven't been able to make anything and haven't felt like eating a whole lot. I've been taking a raw prenatal vitamin, DHA supplements, liquid B-12 when I can stomach it and adding green powders to orange juice one in a while as well. I am determined to eat high raw this pregnancy because I truly feel that is the best thing I can do, but I have to have energy to make my food.
I think I found a doula, I am going to meet with her hopefully next Thursday and see how it goes from there. I would like to have a home birth, and hopefully a doula can help me navigate how in the hell that happens here in Spain. I've already had one appointment with an obstetrician and I know that that isn't the route I want to go if I can avoid here. In Spain, the birth industry is extremely medicalized and way more penis centered than what I imagine the US to be like. But I guess it is bad in all western countries.
People here act like I am crazy when I say things like that I would like to try to avoid an episiotomy. It's like they never even considered that it was even an option to NOT have one. Or they think I am positively reckless because I don't want to have an ultrasound every three weeks like my OB does routinely.
I just need some help and support and I hope this doula works out or its back to searching.
I hope to update more often now that I am (fingers crossed)feeling better!
My diet has been pretty bad, simply because I haven't been able to make anything and haven't felt like eating a whole lot. I've been taking a raw prenatal vitamin, DHA supplements, liquid B-12 when I can stomach it and adding green powders to orange juice one in a while as well. I am determined to eat high raw this pregnancy because I truly feel that is the best thing I can do, but I have to have energy to make my food.
I think I found a doula, I am going to meet with her hopefully next Thursday and see how it goes from there. I would like to have a home birth, and hopefully a doula can help me navigate how in the hell that happens here in Spain. I've already had one appointment with an obstetrician and I know that that isn't the route I want to go if I can avoid here. In Spain, the birth industry is extremely medicalized and way more penis centered than what I imagine the US to be like. But I guess it is bad in all western countries.
People here act like I am crazy when I say things like that I would like to try to avoid an episiotomy. It's like they never even considered that it was even an option to NOT have one. Or they think I am positively reckless because I don't want to have an ultrasound every three weeks like my OB does routinely.
I just need some help and support and I hope this doula works out or its back to searching.
I hope to update more often now that I am (fingers crossed)feeling better!