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I haven't written in here in what seems like forever again. I'm at school again and I'm obsessively bothered on the verge of tears right now. I met Ron's mother acouple days ago who I have to say was satan's fucking twin. From the second I met her she was nothing but rude to me and not to mention the way she treats him is completely repulsive. I haven't met someone that fucked in the head since like god, I don't even know when... She tells Ron when to eat, when to take his pills, gives herself the liberty of telling me every medical condition Ron's had since birth like its her fucking business. I swear the woman would like to be there to tell him what he's allowed to say. She calls him names. ugh she makes me so sick to my stomach. I told Ron last nite that I never wanted to ever meet her again. I seriously could not stand her that much. It bothers me that he has to live with her. I hope he moves out for his own mental well being. dude she has ron sign over his paychecks from BOTH jobs straight to her like as if he owes her the fucking world. UGH. anyways... today I talk to ron and he like tells me how his mother hates me....
this really shouldn't bother me. if anything i should take it as a compliment someone so deranged would take such a disliking to me. but unfortunatly i have this awful thing where i feel like i need people to like me. its dumb. i know. and i know i really fucking hate her with a passion. like i actually hate her. not even a strong dislike. nothing annoys me more then to witness such abuse of someone i care about. and it grosses me out more that she acts like she's proud of it. fuck her. fuck her because now i feel like all hurt... and i feel like offended and i know im going to act weird around ron now because she's offended me.... blah. she's the only fucking mother of a boyfriend to not like me. and she's fucking jewish hello.... if the dumb bitch knew anything about being a jew she'd know you have to like when your son is dating a jewish girl. like wtf hello we're only 2% of the world's population. RAAAAAAAWR if anyone would like to gun the bitch down please let me know i'll find out her address for you =D hah not really i hope she just desides she hates herself 1/2 as much as i hate her and shoots herself in the head... or hmmmmm actually she probably already does and that's why she is so unhappy. sorry. i feel bad cos i know this is ron's mother.... so i shouldn't act like this but i am completely appauled.
ANYWAYS.... GRRR i have a test to take in psychology which i will most likely fail. sucks to be me. then i will go home and see ron and try to not act like a bitch cos im hurt.
also that kid from a long time ago who came into my work and asked about me that looked like brett came in and asked me out. and hah turns out his name is brett and he goes to smc. wouldn't you know. thank god he's not the same one. but i not going to go out with him cos of ron now.... i swear i love how like.... when it rains it pours. but like i have droughts half the time and it sucks ass. ron is rad tho, and im having a really good time with him but im also afraid to let myself like him too much for the fact that if my whole ordeal with liking jasen so much wasn't enough to have to go through that again would be too much for me right now. oh right. school i should go. hm. wah.
this really shouldn't bother me. if anything i should take it as a compliment someone so deranged would take such a disliking to me. but unfortunatly i have this awful thing where i feel like i need people to like me. its dumb. i know. and i know i really fucking hate her with a passion. like i actually hate her. not even a strong dislike. nothing annoys me more then to witness such abuse of someone i care about. and it grosses me out more that she acts like she's proud of it. fuck her. fuck her because now i feel like all hurt... and i feel like offended and i know im going to act weird around ron now because she's offended me.... blah. she's the only fucking mother of a boyfriend to not like me. and she's fucking jewish hello.... if the dumb bitch knew anything about being a jew she'd know you have to like when your son is dating a jewish girl. like wtf hello we're only 2% of the world's population. RAAAAAAAWR if anyone would like to gun the bitch down please let me know i'll find out her address for you =D hah not really i hope she just desides she hates herself 1/2 as much as i hate her and shoots herself in the head... or hmmmmm actually she probably already does and that's why she is so unhappy. sorry. i feel bad cos i know this is ron's mother.... so i shouldn't act like this but i am completely appauled.
ANYWAYS.... GRRR i have a test to take in psychology which i will most likely fail. sucks to be me. then i will go home and see ron and try to not act like a bitch cos im hurt.
also that kid from a long time ago who came into my work and asked about me that looked like brett came in and asked me out. and hah turns out his name is brett and he goes to smc. wouldn't you know. thank god he's not the same one. but i not going to go out with him cos of ron now.... i swear i love how like.... when it rains it pours. but like i have droughts half the time and it sucks ass. ron is rad tho, and im having a really good time with him but im also afraid to let myself like him too much for the fact that if my whole ordeal with liking jasen so much wasn't enough to have to go through that again would be too much for me right now. oh right. school i should go. hm. wah.