Why can I not find men?
Okay, I can answer that myself. I don't know anyone. The only people I know is Tony's friends, and I've met a good portion of them. Tony's friends are just .. . . . . unfuckable. Dirty street kids. Gay. Skeevy bastards. None of them are worth doing. Sure, there's always Adam who hounds me, but, I've been there, done that, didn't come. And the Englishman just brushes me off. I never had that tea and biscuits night with him. Guys, you know when you ask a girl over to 'watch movies' but you're really hoping to get laid? Yeah, I'm one of those girls. It has been almost three months, which is the longest I've gone (discounting the whole 'virginity' thing). I'm bored, men. I just want somewhere to go on a Sat or Sun night, stare at your ceiling for about an hour, then go home. Where the hell are all of you?
According to my boss, I don't dress correctly (don't ask about the conversations with my boss). I think, hell, I wear tight jeans, tight shirt, a pair of chucks, play video games for a while, then have sex. Why isn't this scenario working? I dressed up the last day for my old job, and one of the supervisors asked who I was. I've been fucking working here for nine fucking months, you fucking bastard. Hello? The only one who does their job on the variety side? Can be transfered to any department and do an adequate job? Oh yeah, you didn't notice me because I wasn't wearing fucking thigh highs. Prick.
It kinda disheartens me. I should have a queue for men. Emily once said to me, guys secretly want someone to nag at them. Is that it? Do guys really just want some girl who has a hot body, no personality, but doesn't talk? Is that really true? I hate it. I'm always losing because I have a goddamn personality. Sorry to disappoint you guys, but I can hold up a conversation. Yeah, even and especially about video games. But you can keep your cars. I don't know anything about cars. Does that make you feel more masculine. Do you feel threatened? I thought it would be magnificient to a guy; here's someone who acts like one of your buddy's, with all the nicities of a woman, and then you get to have sex. Guess that's too simple.
I'm going to stop now. I'm getting no where and just pissing myself off.
According to my boss, I don't dress correctly (don't ask about the conversations with my boss). I think, hell, I wear tight jeans, tight shirt, a pair of chucks, play video games for a while, then have sex. Why isn't this scenario working? I dressed up the last day for my old job, and one of the supervisors asked who I was. I've been fucking working here for nine fucking months, you fucking bastard. Hello? The only one who does their job on the variety side? Can be transfered to any department and do an adequate job? Oh yeah, you didn't notice me because I wasn't wearing fucking thigh highs. Prick.
It kinda disheartens me. I should have a queue for men. Emily once said to me, guys secretly want someone to nag at them. Is that it? Do guys really just want some girl who has a hot body, no personality, but doesn't talk? Is that really true? I hate it. I'm always losing because I have a goddamn personality. Sorry to disappoint you guys, but I can hold up a conversation. Yeah, even and especially about video games. But you can keep your cars. I don't know anything about cars. Does that make you feel more masculine. Do you feel threatened? I thought it would be magnificient to a guy; here's someone who acts like one of your buddy's, with all the nicities of a woman, and then you get to have sex. Guess that's too simple.
I'm going to stop now. I'm getting no where and just pissing myself off.