I really don't understand much of anything right now
The worst part of the whole thing is waking up in the middle of night and for a split second feeling fine and then reality washes over and the pain comes rushing back. Or maybe it's the fact that nothing really makes you stop thinking about it. Or maybe it's knowing that you're going to feel like this for a while Or maybe it's knowing that a month ago you were finally healed and here you are all the way back at square one. Or maybe there really is no worst part. Maybe it's just bad.
I've got to put up a wall. I'm sorry but I really have to for my own good. Obviously I can't do that to the people that are really close to me. You know who you are. I just feel too much I guess. I can't let people see that anymore. I can't wear my heart on my sleeve anymore. I've got to harden up and just tough it out. I can't be so emotional and can't trust most people out there.
Maybe this sounds really cynical. But I'm through giving people chances. I'm through with letting people in. I'm through with getting hurt. I won't let it happen anymore. I can't let it happen anymore.
I've got to put up a wall. I'm sorry but I really have to for my own good. Obviously I can't do that to the people that are really close to me. You know who you are. I just feel too much I guess. I can't let people see that anymore. I can't wear my heart on my sleeve anymore. I've got to harden up and just tough it out. I can't be so emotional and can't trust most people out there.
Maybe this sounds really cynical. But I'm through giving people chances. I'm through with letting people in. I'm through with getting hurt. I won't let it happen anymore. I can't let it happen anymore.