I had forgotten how awful this feels.

I think what scares me the most
is that I already know the answer to that question...

Fuck this
Two days of working to feel like myself again and it all means nothing now

I just want to go home.

Shut the light off, turn the bed down
No more crying, don't you dare.

to trust something clearer.

I haven't written in here forever ( Read more... )

Maybe this is when you realize
there was no fluke
that you're still in love
but there's nothing you can do about it
because it's already done and over with

Maybe you've been reaching out to this new person
Just to know that you can still feel something
anything

Tonight was so different and much worse than anything I ever could have imagined...

Today I'm making a promise ( Read more... )

I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.
I will not overanalyze.

Okay, so I've waited a week
I think I've worried myself to the point of sickness
literally
and now I have to wait even longer?
Fuck

Dealing with death always gives me this window of time when everything changes ( Read more... )