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[diva_la_bam]

Today I'm making a promise
to refocus myself when I get back

Last semester was not just a fluke
It was real and a complete change in the way I live my life
This last month and a half was the fluke
Just a step off the path I had set myself on
I am going to get back on that path
I don't have to be the way I always was
It is not just a part of who I am
It is a drug
And I'm quitting it
I'm done
Done with the uncertainty
the disappointment
the self-criticism
It's time to be good to myself again
It's time to take back the control in my life

And when I close my eyes at night
I will dream of people and places that are not real
I will not allow myself to dream of what I want my reality to be
I will not set myself up to be let down like that anymore

I am not closing off
I am not putting up a wall
I am just

free.