"Did you want a flashlight ... or did you want the SUN?"
last night justin called to tell me he got my package.
i worked for hours on this "cadence kit" for him. it had a ton of running and marching cadences, that i seperated with a table of contents. i had lamenation stuff on all the pages, and i even put cool little army stickers and whatnot all over the pages. i wrote him a super long letter in the beginning about how he is a strong leader and how proud i am of him and all that great stuff. then the front cover was a ton of quotes either inspirational or military or movie related. so he called and was so excited about it. he said he made ppl in his squad come up and read each quote and for the braveheart quote i used he made them all yell the "freedom" part. :) it was EXACTLY what i needed to hear him sound so happy to talk to me for once.
then i talked to tim ... before that actually. and tim was telling me how justin is working like 4in the morning till 11 at night every single day. so it made me feel much better after the message i got from my battle buddy. and made me feel better in general.
justin's so extremely busy and he sounds so tired. oh! he even told me that the letter i wrote for him in the book almost made him cry.
i guess i still am pretty important to him.
i talked to jen today about going to visit our boys in benning in sept. we shall see.
i talked to peter in vermont too about some of this stuff, and life stuff. and i think it helped. it always helps to talk and get a little insight on things.
for all the worrying i might do, and all the times i wish justin would write back to me on myspace and whatever else ... i miss him soooooo soooo much. i remember the times when he made me feel like no one else in this world and when he would just come to me at night and hold me and kiss me like he really loved me. for how hard this is, it's going to be so worth it when i can see him again. even if it's just for a day or a night.
when i hear his voice, or when i'm looking through pictures i just want to tell him how much i miss him over and over. i hope he misses me. ;)
i read carrie's entry about loving someone who can make you laugh when you're crying and it made me all sentimental.
i'll tell you this carrie - i have quite a few things i want to say so even if i'm not a maid of honor, i want my own speech. seriously. i've got so many things to say to you two!! (mostly you).
anyways ... my point was that carrie and mike have this thing that is so true and i can see that. i was really kinda hoping that true thing for me would be with justin beucase he's the first guy i've been with who has at least the majority of the qualities i've always wanted, even if he's not perfect. but no one's perfect and from hundreds of miles away, with just a simple phone call he can still make me feel the way he made me feel the very first time we kissed or talked or hung out or whatever.
ok. gotta get off the subject!!
side note: i hope rachel and matt hook up. (lol)
she needs a good man.
anyways ...
i have my doctors appt tomorrow for a 2nd opinion. we shall see!! then i have to go to gander and tell them to switch ANOTHER one of my days. i might not be able to stay there if they keep doing this because during the school year my avail. is going to be crazy and if i have to worry about getting in trouble b/c they screw up the schedule when i can't work and they knew it, then it might not be worth it. i hate getting in trouble. and i hate having to be such an imposition. i don't know how i feel about stephanie. i don't think she likes me. i feel like she's trying to pressure me into quiting best buy. i have a year left of school -do you really think that i'm going to be a lifelong employee? i mean, i dont really know whats going to happen but i do know that i am a college student and i dont want to be a supervisor or a manager or anything so i dont know why it should matter that much!!
ok. need to stop ranting!!
i DO like it there a lot!
i am going to curl up and watch a movie or something since i dont need to be up very early tomorrow.
kelly and manda should come visit me at gander tomorrow night...
i can't wait to meet up with my favorite OML girls on friday!!
and maybe even go out thursday for a tiny bit after a long long long day of working? we will see.
:)
i am so happy right now and it's wonderful to feel happy for ONCE!!!
i worked for hours on this "cadence kit" for him. it had a ton of running and marching cadences, that i seperated with a table of contents. i had lamenation stuff on all the pages, and i even put cool little army stickers and whatnot all over the pages. i wrote him a super long letter in the beginning about how he is a strong leader and how proud i am of him and all that great stuff. then the front cover was a ton of quotes either inspirational or military or movie related. so he called and was so excited about it. he said he made ppl in his squad come up and read each quote and for the braveheart quote i used he made them all yell the "freedom" part. :) it was EXACTLY what i needed to hear him sound so happy to talk to me for once.
then i talked to tim ... before that actually. and tim was telling me how justin is working like 4in the morning till 11 at night every single day. so it made me feel much better after the message i got from my battle buddy. and made me feel better in general.
justin's so extremely busy and he sounds so tired. oh! he even told me that the letter i wrote for him in the book almost made him cry.
i guess i still am pretty important to him.
i talked to jen today about going to visit our boys in benning in sept. we shall see.
i talked to peter in vermont too about some of this stuff, and life stuff. and i think it helped. it always helps to talk and get a little insight on things.
for all the worrying i might do, and all the times i wish justin would write back to me on myspace and whatever else ... i miss him soooooo soooo much. i remember the times when he made me feel like no one else in this world and when he would just come to me at night and hold me and kiss me like he really loved me. for how hard this is, it's going to be so worth it when i can see him again. even if it's just for a day or a night.
when i hear his voice, or when i'm looking through pictures i just want to tell him how much i miss him over and over. i hope he misses me. ;)
i read carrie's entry about loving someone who can make you laugh when you're crying and it made me all sentimental.
i'll tell you this carrie - i have quite a few things i want to say so even if i'm not a maid of honor, i want my own speech. seriously. i've got so many things to say to you two!! (mostly you).
anyways ... my point was that carrie and mike have this thing that is so true and i can see that. i was really kinda hoping that true thing for me would be with justin beucase he's the first guy i've been with who has at least the majority of the qualities i've always wanted, even if he's not perfect. but no one's perfect and from hundreds of miles away, with just a simple phone call he can still make me feel the way he made me feel the very first time we kissed or talked or hung out or whatever.
ok. gotta get off the subject!!
side note: i hope rachel and matt hook up. (lol)
she needs a good man.
anyways ...
i have my doctors appt tomorrow for a 2nd opinion. we shall see!! then i have to go to gander and tell them to switch ANOTHER one of my days. i might not be able to stay there if they keep doing this because during the school year my avail. is going to be crazy and if i have to worry about getting in trouble b/c they screw up the schedule when i can't work and they knew it, then it might not be worth it. i hate getting in trouble. and i hate having to be such an imposition. i don't know how i feel about stephanie. i don't think she likes me. i feel like she's trying to pressure me into quiting best buy. i have a year left of school -do you really think that i'm going to be a lifelong employee? i mean, i dont really know whats going to happen but i do know that i am a college student and i dont want to be a supervisor or a manager or anything so i dont know why it should matter that much!!
ok. need to stop ranting!!
i DO like it there a lot!
i am going to curl up and watch a movie or something since i dont need to be up very early tomorrow.
kelly and manda should come visit me at gander tomorrow night...
i can't wait to meet up with my favorite OML girls on friday!!
and maybe even go out thursday for a tiny bit after a long long long day of working? we will see.
:)
i am so happy right now and it's wonderful to feel happy for ONCE!!!