When I let myself become spiritually and emotionally vulnerable after a difficult time, I start blaming outside influences for my current state of existence.  It's a vicious cycle - and playing the victim card is never productive.  Perhaps I mostly get mad at myself for failing to recognize people and situations in their current state.  ( Read more... )

I was surrounded by lush greens and abundance ( Read more... )

The Signs of Inner Peace ( Read more... )

Just read this today and it made me realize a few things. I feel like my focus has been on a lot of negative aspects of life. Time for a shift ( Read more... )

It's so fitting that the encounter of the utmost significance in my life should occur within a month of posting my birthday entry about slow burners and torch fires. The former theory of either/or has been disproven; there can be a marriage of both energies. This was my deepest hope. I have heard people say 'It was love at first sight'. I often ( Read more... )

So today I turned 30 ( Read more... )

*Within 2 minutes of getting to Happy Endings, I knocked a guy's PBR out of his hand while disrobing my 200 layers of bundle-up gear. I had no idea. I turned around and his beer was everywhere. He threw his hands up like "AND WHAT ( Read more... )

Thanks for calling me back 3 days later. Thanks for telling me how shocked you are that he is dead when he was in such good shape when you saw him. Thanks for explaining that this medication has never had such a bad reaction in other animals. I'm sure he'd really fucking appreciate it ( Read more... )

He was so small and delicate. He weighed less than a pound. I was bringing him to a nearby park. On the way, there were two silk flowers on the sidewalk. I found it really strange and symbolic. I picked one of them up and brought it with me ( Read more... )

Last night: 12/10/04 ( Read more... )