NY, ED Group, Mg
A few things that are going on in my life right now:
1) My mom/dad/sister are going to New York at the end of April but I won't be going. Part of me really wants to go and experience what I've heard is an awesome city and a MUST SEE place. But the other part of me is extremely tired even contemplating what it would be like to deal with food/ed stuff while on vacation, trapped with my family in close quarters for 10 days. Last May we went to L.A. and it was pretty stressful. I ended up losing a bunch of weight while on vacation because I didn't have a scale and I was away from my usual routine so of course the ED kicked into high gear. My treatment team strongly recommends that I don't go because of the increased medical coverage I'll need while traveling for my "pre-existing condition" and the fact that there will be nobody monitoring me if I do go away.
I also don't think that it would be much fun (for me or for him) to bring my 3 year old. He has no interest in shopping or museums or plays and since I have to pay full price for another airplane seat for him, it's not worth it. I'd rather save up and take him to Disneyland or something when he's older and would really appreciate it. *I hope that doesn't sound selfish*
2) This week our ED group sessions started up again. There were only 5 girls in the group this time. I almost didn't go (I felt too fat!) but I'm soooo glad I did. I have a feeling it's gonna be a good group and I already feel 'connected' to them. 2 of the girls are going through the same stuck-ness in isolating themselves so that makes me feel a bit better and less alone. I was shocked to find that they'd pretty much all got their "behaviors" under control and the things they wanted to talk about were NOT food related. They had to do with relationships, life, etc. Wow, I wonder when I will get to that stage where the biggest thing on my mind is what I ate/willeat/willnoteat/wanttoeat, etc.
3) Edema has significantly decreased and my lower legs are almost back to normal!!! I need to go into the hospital (sometime soon, not sure when) for 5 days to get Magnesium infusions done to bring those levels back up to normal, then when my bloodwork comes back stable they'll prescribe me something to help keep the edema away and prevent more Mg loss and reduce muscle cramps. I cannot WAIT!!!
1) My mom/dad/sister are going to New York at the end of April but I won't be going. Part of me really wants to go and experience what I've heard is an awesome city and a MUST SEE place. But the other part of me is extremely tired even contemplating what it would be like to deal with food/ed stuff while on vacation, trapped with my family in close quarters for 10 days. Last May we went to L.A. and it was pretty stressful. I ended up losing a bunch of weight while on vacation because I didn't have a scale and I was away from my usual routine so of course the ED kicked into high gear. My treatment team strongly recommends that I don't go because of the increased medical coverage I'll need while traveling for my "pre-existing condition" and the fact that there will be nobody monitoring me if I do go away.
I also don't think that it would be much fun (for me or for him) to bring my 3 year old. He has no interest in shopping or museums or plays and since I have to pay full price for another airplane seat for him, it's not worth it. I'd rather save up and take him to Disneyland or something when he's older and would really appreciate it. *I hope that doesn't sound selfish*
2) This week our ED group sessions started up again. There were only 5 girls in the group this time. I almost didn't go (I felt too fat!) but I'm soooo glad I did. I have a feeling it's gonna be a good group and I already feel 'connected' to them. 2 of the girls are going through the same stuck-ness in isolating themselves so that makes me feel a bit better and less alone. I was shocked to find that they'd pretty much all got their "behaviors" under control and the things they wanted to talk about were NOT food related. They had to do with relationships, life, etc. Wow, I wonder when I will get to that stage where the biggest thing on my mind is what I ate/willeat/willnoteat/wanttoeat, etc.
3) Edema has significantly decreased and my lower legs are almost back to normal!!! I need to go into the hospital (sometime soon, not sure when) for 5 days to get Magnesium infusions done to bring those levels back up to normal, then when my bloodwork comes back stable they'll prescribe me something to help keep the edema away and prevent more Mg loss and reduce muscle cramps. I cannot WAIT!!!