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I cant eat I cant sleep all I want to do is cut until I can have her back into my life! Mom and Dad still havent found out about my gash on my arm and I plan to keep it that way unless it would help me get her back, no it will just make mother put me in a metal hospital then I wont be able to go into the navey and I wont be able to be an obgyn. But I cant just give up Brandi, I am not a quiter Its not in me to quit I got her to talk to me alittle on tuesday but all she could say to me is she doesnt want to talk to me again no matter what. I asked her if I can still email her and she didnt say anything, I swear to the GODES I WILL KILL MYSELF IF I CANT HAVE HER IN MY LIFE!!!!!! Got to go my wanna be parental is calling me to come out of my room and eat like I actually will do what they say any more.