May 06, 2012 09:33
my promised ride (lift) down into Bristol didn't materialise last night.
this left my head in a pretty fragile place truth be told. i know i could've bussed it down into town, then schlepped across the centre but.. i didn't want to.
not to drink.
Christ, i don't know what's wrong with me.
my anti-Bristol feeling is as bad as it's ever been. i just don't GET this city. i don't LIKE this city. most of the people i've met when i've been out at night downtown, friends excepting, have been drunk, crude, insulting. why the frick would i want to put myself in that?
i don't get it.
i don't know if it's something else in me that's broken. Something that i distrust around alcohol, people. I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!
Fear.
Fear of a lot of people in this part of the world. Don't know why, just is.
So.... i turned the prospect of being ignored, the fear of beign abandoned, neglected, forgotten about into a positive. went to the gym - found the gym closed - then went to the local movieplex and got tickets for the Avengers.
then walked back over to Burger King and had my first BK in, like, 7 years or so.
Nicer than McDonalds.
Saw The Avengers.
Wow.
there's a film i can see over and over again. Apparently the dvd cut will be almost 3 hours long... but it didn't seem that long at all. I really got sucked into this film, and seeing as i didn't pee at all through the entire film it was a thumbs-up from my bladder!!
Joss Whedon ought to do more movies.
Cos it's not the kung-fu fighting of Avengers that makes it work for me. It's the script and the humour. And one line almost had me in tears.
But the kung-fu fighting works cos, like the Space Battle in Serenity, it got the "look" right. Certain angles have to work for any big epic movie fight scene and this one has it.
Also the last reason I liked it is cos you can play 'Spot the Whedon Actor' with the secondary cast members. And the primary ones, Jeremy Renner was in Angel.
So. I had my doubts initially, but nah, this was a good movie. When's the sequel?
And why we gush about this, try and wonder why my insides (heart, ability to trust) are so defensive. Alcohol is a deity here in Bristol it seems. But i've never been an acolyte.
making something out of nothing,
self-esteem,
moodiness,
trust,
movies