weekend sun
I was really upset that I couldn't go home this weekend but staying here turned out wonderful after all. Nic and I went to the New Museum in Soho on Friday. To be honest, I didn't feel up to it at first but once we began walking it felt right. It reminded me of our P.S.1/5 pointz trip and how that was the most perfect untainted day I can recall. Saturday we slept in and spent the rest of the afternoon in Williamsburg, which always makes me happy. We fell into funks and for the first time things felt different when we pulled through. I'm trying my best to go towards love rather than holding it off.
Last week Derek and I started talking again too. It's strange to have him back but so good. We're both in relationships now so maybe this friendship thing will finally work? I guess they've been together for a while now but it's fading or they're having issues which is unfortunate because I really want him to be happy. It kills me when he comes and goes. I almost forget what we've been through. It's easier for it to seem insignificant now that we've been apart longer than we've been together. I feel lucky that when he decides he wants to be friends, we immediately go back to us. Not romantically but it's never weird or awkward. It's nice to be talking again, to know what's going on in his life, but he's done this so many times. I guess I'll just try not to get my hopes up until he's stuck around for a while.
Last week Derek and I started talking again too. It's strange to have him back but so good. We're both in relationships now so maybe this friendship thing will finally work? I guess they've been together for a while now but it's fading or they're having issues which is unfortunate because I really want him to be happy. It kills me when he comes and goes. I almost forget what we've been through. It's easier for it to seem insignificant now that we've been apart longer than we've been together. I feel lucky that when he decides he wants to be friends, we immediately go back to us. Not romantically but it's never weird or awkward. It's nice to be talking again, to know what's going on in his life, but he's done this so many times. I guess I'll just try not to get my hopes up until he's stuck around for a while.