Still feel yucky. And House was very disappointing last night. And the semester already feels overwhelming. And I feel hopeless and worthless again. Think I'm gonna have to drop biochem if I want to actually finish all my classes and incompletes this semester. And I'm dehydrated and my potassium level is crap (because I haven't run my TPN like I ( Read more... )

God has been so present and LOUD today (well, all week actually). I've been hurting so bad and been so sick the last couple weeks. I keep asking when it was I let this disease steal my joy and start winning. When did I give up hope? Not sure exactly (though I have some ideas). However, this week has been one of many discussions and many messages ( Read more... )

It's five and I am still in my pj's because once again I didn't have the energy to get up and get dressed this morning. I foolishly thought I could manage SMC mini-tour this past weekend after a week of feeling lousy. Obviously I failed miserably. The bus ride made me so sick. I haven't felt that horrible in such a long time. The whole time I was ( Read more... )

I am not worthless. I do have friends. I do have people that care about me. They're just not here right now. It will be ok.

...someone please call me before i completely lose it...

Well, this first post is going to be a glum one, full of feeling sorry for myself, but part of the reason for creating this journal is to have a place to vent, so if you don't wish to read whiny self-pity, just skip the post ( Read more... )