Chipperness twice removed.

[derekhaltom]

I had me a nice happy mood earlier, and while it's not completely gone, I'm feeling a bit, oh, under the weather now. Not depressed, just... Something. I've been thinking about "her". (I borrowed that little descriptive technique from Meredith.) I miss "her". More than I should. Those moments when everything was gone and it was just "her". That's

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I think you should get your ass in the trash

[palindromicme]

Dig out her number and call her....better yet....hop in your car and pay her a visit. (yes I know you'd be driving for days)

Would that be too weird? I'm a bit sleep-deprevied and am all about the grandeouso gestures here.

Sleep or no sleep, I'm always about the love...and if you have a chance to...follow it. I don't blame you for being scared, but hey..it's like gambling...you gotta risk big to win big...

Then again, don't ask me...I'm a compulsive gambler.

Hope you're feeling better. Try listening to some Prince...he's awfully soothing.

[moonwyllow]

Does she still work at MOO? You know you COULD find her information (name/phone/address) rather easily. When your dad and I were "courting from afar", we lost touch for awhile. I went throught the "ohmygodiamsoscaredbecausewethinkjustalikeandhowcanigetinvolvedwiththismanthatlives1000milesaway!" phase. It took me three years to just finally up and realize it was all real and stop being so scared. He was real. We could have a real relationship. And that he loved me truly for who I was...quirks, chub and all. Sometimes it takes a woman a long time to realize that kind of stuff...and then it takes them awhile to accept it and embrace it

Thankx.

[derekhaltom]

I appreciate the concern, but there isn't anything more I can do. I have tried all that. She's the one that broke off all contact with me. And for whatever reason, she doesn't want anything to do with me now.

[derekhaltom]

You know what's funny, is she said the same thing. "The timing isn't right." Okay, so if it wasn't then, how could it ever be? It won't. If it couldn't work then, what's to change that? Especially now since I live so far away? The answer is nothing. It won't happen between us, because it can't. I would love to think that I could call her and all would be happy conversation, but I don't think it would. I don't think I could get ahold of her. I wish it were different, but it isn't, and wishing won't help. I just felt a little down, wanted to actually write something in this that was journal-ish. Just another to add to the long list of things that I really wish would've happened but didn't. Yeah, time will make it better, yeah, there is probably someone else out there for me. All of that. It's cliche' because it's all true. But you know me and patience...

[derekhaltom]

nah, thats ok. it was yesterdays problem, not todays. i'm not down about it now. just gotta reply to the posts y'know?