You have no idea how alone I feel right now.

Back to this shit again. Melo is down. What a suprise...I haven't been here for awile. So I guess it's new years eve...but who really cares you know? I mean the only people who want to hang out with me want me to just get them fucked up anyways. I might as well save my money and sit at home all night. I'm glad I have such great friends who just ( Read more... )

I woke up really early today. My mom called steve for some reason and woke me up...and I couldnt go back to sleep cuz I just keep thinking about how I'm useless right now. it really btohers me that I don't have a job or anything. I mean...I guess apparently it appear i enjoy this to someone cuz everyone just seems to hate me for it. -sigh- Its too ( Read more... )

The claws of the great big fraud ( Read more... )

A clam explains the texture of my hands ( Read more... )

Its hard to talk right now. I feel fucking retarded and empty. I shouldnt be sitting here I should be working. Supporting myself and making it fun to be around me. but no...I just make people hate me because Im just a virus...Im so fucking frustrated I cant even think. And I feel really fucking bad because I cant talk to anyone..my words come out ( Read more... )

Symptoms of sentiment ( Read more... )

This my own little world I conceive ( Read more... )

Today wasn't a good day. My sister did something really stupid and ended up in the hospital. I rushed down there to make sure everything was ok. Now I have a lot of crap on my mind. Times like these I'm glad to have someone there for me. I'm getting ready to shut down...I need less shit bugging me.

I'm still sitting here. Wondering why the fuck i dont have a job. I mean it went from getting up on tuesday ready to go to work and everything...to all of a sudden my parents hate me and its my fault I lost the SS card. What the FUCK. If I ever had my goddamn card iw ould be fucking stupid and hide it from myself so well I would lose it. besides I ( Read more... )