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what the hell do i have to give if it isnt this? if it isnt this freshness and purity in my body and my dance and what comes through the deepest part of me when i act?? how can i give something i dont care about? i can't do this. i cant go on pretending that im interested. i am WASTING life and minutes. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING something real and genuine. this is A HALF LIFE this expensive private school eduction. what am i doing to help the world?? im so frustrated. if i could do some theatre MAYBE I COULD CHANGE SOMEONE!!! thats waht its about isnt it? i mean thats what it is for me... i need to have an impact or theres no point! theres no point ot being here in this world if i dont fit into my puzzle piece but IM NOT GOING TO fit into the cookie cutter puzzle pieces. no. i am POWERFUL and i dont need shit telling me that im not good enough. that im a b student and that means i cant be accepted into some elite organization known as university. if i wanted, i could get into any fucking university. but i guess other things are more important to me. i wish i could change this but i cant. i have other motives and other drives and i have this thing inside me thats BEGGING to be let out and i have to set myself free sometime. whens it going to be? if i dont do something soon its going to release and explode and i wont be prepared. i need an outlet. i know somethings coming BUT I CANT HOLD IT INSIDE ME I NEED TO GET OUT