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Yesterday me and Jaz went and spent the day in peterbourgh going to different agencies and letting them know we started the meeting there. Everywhere was really receptive and positive about the meeting. I got such a high from doing it.
I also saw alex last night. It seems like there was such a large buildup in my head and of course now Im still playing over what I said and all that stuff. Fuck my mind is on a rollercoaster I need to not feed the obsession. He seemed withdrawn and I talked to him briefly at the end of the meeting. He said I look great which is a bloster to my ego because I have been feeling like a fat cow lately. My naturopath said I need to work out more.
I bike EVERYWHERE. iI didnt buy a metropass for that reason so I would HAVE to work out . Plus I try and get to the gym 3 times a week so I can do 40 minutes of cardio and weight lifting. Fuck me.
I hoep he comes back and I get to see him. i am selfish and I need to rember I can't control this. God's will will be done NOT mine. Besides, hes just been an illusion in my head I dont even know the man.
So what else mmm??\
I have talked to this woman who is an advocate for domestic violence. I know thats where I want to go when I get into social work. Not addictions because I already deal with that through the meetings and I feel like that would be overkill. I want to help women and men possibly who have been abused.
Charlies up to something as well. I had a dream last night that he came to get me.Something doesn't feel right with him comming around and such. Anyways I figured I should update because its been a while and I needed to write alex off my head. Goddess, remove my obsession.
xoxooxoxox Vanessa
I also saw alex last night. It seems like there was such a large buildup in my head and of course now Im still playing over what I said and all that stuff. Fuck my mind is on a rollercoaster I need to not feed the obsession. He seemed withdrawn and I talked to him briefly at the end of the meeting. He said I look great which is a bloster to my ego because I have been feeling like a fat cow lately. My naturopath said I need to work out more.
I bike EVERYWHERE. iI didnt buy a metropass for that reason so I would HAVE to work out . Plus I try and get to the gym 3 times a week so I can do 40 minutes of cardio and weight lifting. Fuck me.
I hoep he comes back and I get to see him. i am selfish and I need to rember I can't control this. God's will will be done NOT mine. Besides, hes just been an illusion in my head I dont even know the man.
So what else mmm??\
I have talked to this woman who is an advocate for domestic violence. I know thats where I want to go when I get into social work. Not addictions because I already deal with that through the meetings and I feel like that would be overkill. I want to help women and men possibly who have been abused.
Charlies up to something as well. I had a dream last night that he came to get me.Something doesn't feel right with him comming around and such. Anyways I figured I should update because its been a while and I needed to write alex off my head. Goddess, remove my obsession.
xoxooxoxox Vanessa