Happy um, Fourth of July
So, I just wrote some intense e-mails. I feel better though. Honestly, even if their reactions are negative, I feel good just that I communicated what I wanted. My biggest struggle is telling people what I want. So, just doing this has really helped. I had a family dinner with my Dad last weekend, and he basically treated me really poorly in front of my entire family. So I told him that he needed to treat me with respect. When he ignored that, I just repeated myself and refused to answer his question until he respectfully addressed me. He went home instead. It doesn't matter though. I told him what I wanted. It's his choice to give it to me or not, but the telling is what's important to me.
I don't think I will be able to be happy with myself until I have mastered the ability to communicate my desires to other people without feeling guilty or as if I am burdening them. I could spend a couple of hours theorizing as to why I am this way, but it doesn't matter. I am not going to let that weakness inhibit me anymore.
Working on a new story. If all I get out of living here is more stories and quality time with friends, then I guess that's good enough for me. Probably moving back to Portland in August though.
Some good things (to balance out the bad):
1. The Brother's Quay, Street of Crocodiles video is amazing if you are into stop-motion.
2. The band Frightened Rabbit is great. Specifically, I love the song Keep Yourself Warm (it's available for download on this blog).
3. Portland in two days. I am staying with the lovely Jenni and the amazing McKenzie. I honestly cannot wait for midnight bike rides and good food.
4. Malaya and I ate at this fucking delicious Thai restaurant on Capitol Hill. Seriously, this is the best Thai food I have had in forever (maybe ever). It's called Ayutthaya Thai. Please eat there; it's so wonderful.
5. Sarah Palin resigned from her governorship of Alaska.
6. Sugar Skulls are playing this weekend at Funhouse. And Tin Can Tobacco Band is playing at The Blue Moon. Both bands are amazing. The choice should be which one to see, not whether to see either at all.
I don't think I will be able to be happy with myself until I have mastered the ability to communicate my desires to other people without feeling guilty or as if I am burdening them. I could spend a couple of hours theorizing as to why I am this way, but it doesn't matter. I am not going to let that weakness inhibit me anymore.
Working on a new story. If all I get out of living here is more stories and quality time with friends, then I guess that's good enough for me. Probably moving back to Portland in August though.
Some good things (to balance out the bad):
1. The Brother's Quay, Street of Crocodiles video is amazing if you are into stop-motion.
2. The band Frightened Rabbit is great. Specifically, I love the song Keep Yourself Warm (it's available for download on this blog).
3. Portland in two days. I am staying with the lovely Jenni and the amazing McKenzie. I honestly cannot wait for midnight bike rides and good food.
4. Malaya and I ate at this fucking delicious Thai restaurant on Capitol Hill. Seriously, this is the best Thai food I have had in forever (maybe ever). It's called Ayutthaya Thai. Please eat there; it's so wonderful.
5. Sarah Palin resigned from her governorship of Alaska.
6. Sugar Skulls are playing this weekend at Funhouse. And Tin Can Tobacco Band is playing at The Blue Moon. Both bands are amazing. The choice should be which one to see, not whether to see either at all.