Whats wrong with me?
What the fuck is wrong with me? Am I this dumb? I found out today that I have a C in Spanish. You know what that means. Yea I might be kicked off the National Honors Society. How do you like that? I went to my Spanish Teacher and tried to talk things to here about how I cant live with this grade. And she said I'm sorry there is nothing within two days that will bring your grade up one whole grade. So yea I started thinking great I am not going to get any college scholarships because I wont be on the National Honors Society anymore. And I just broke down there. I went into an Anxiety attack and then started crying. I WAS FUCKING PISSED THAT I STARTED CRYING!!!!!!!! YOU DONT DO THAT!! GUYS DONT CRY IN SCHOOL!!!!!!! AHHHHHH! Nobody understands what I am going through. Nobody knows the FUCKING PAIN!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE I AM SINGING A FUCKING GOD DAMN COUNTRY SONG. Ms. Dewey gave me a hug because she said I needed one.
I am a worthless piece of shit. I am never going to be able to do anything good. I need help. And no one seems to believe me. I am scared to tell my dad about my grade because he will yell at me. And I will get upset and say things I will regret. I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO THAT DARK PLACE!!!! I am not being who I use to be. I am not going to start getting bad grades like I use to. I REFUSE TO GO BACK THERE. I HAVE EVOLVED.
NO ONE WILL HELP ME! NO ONE BELIEVES ME!
I WANT IT TO GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am a worthless piece of shit. I am never going to be able to do anything good. I need help. And no one seems to believe me. I am scared to tell my dad about my grade because he will yell at me. And I will get upset and say things I will regret. I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO THAT DARK PLACE!!!! I am not being who I use to be. I am not going to start getting bad grades like I use to. I REFUSE TO GO BACK THERE. I HAVE EVOLVED.
NO ONE WILL HELP ME! NO ONE BELIEVES ME!
I WANT IT TO GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!