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So Im sitting on the computer while Jenna is passed out on her bed and wondering when I should head next door and go to bed myself. I enjoyed today. For the most part I was able to keep him off my mind, but idk, everything fails. We went shopping. Me Jenny and Jenna. the old group. We probably all three haven't been shopping together since the 8th grade. It was fun to reflect on that. To see Clint again...With a job...idk... I miss the old days.
At the same time, I miss school right now. I want Joe..But I know I can't have him...something tells me our days are over. I get this horrible feeling that I might need to let go...to move on...but I can't. He made me so happy...or did he? I mean I think about the things I didn't like...but idk...idk whats holding on to me. whats stopping me from moving on. Im attractive...I think Im a good person...I know I can find someone else...i just don't understand. I want to escape.. I thought coming home would be an easy way but hes still on my mind ALL THE TIME! I need a break...
At the same time, I miss school right now. I want Joe..But I know I can't have him...something tells me our days are over. I get this horrible feeling that I might need to let go...to move on...but I can't. He made me so happy...or did he? I mean I think about the things I didn't like...but idk...idk whats holding on to me. whats stopping me from moving on. Im attractive...I think Im a good person...I know I can find someone else...i just don't understand. I want to escape.. I thought coming home would be an easy way but hes still on my mind ALL THE TIME! I need a break...