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[deevulgence]

Perhaps I had too much drink
Maybe I smoked too much green.
It may have been the power in me.
Whatever it was - I smiled and giggled my whole way home.

I fell in love again
all things go, all things go
drove to Chicago
all things know, all things know
we sold our clothes to the state
I don't mind, I don't mind
I made a lot of mistakes
in my mind, in my mind

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

I found myself wondering where the feeling came from. The idea that I could find such bliss on my simple trip home. I have been through too many blows this year to be playfully walking along dirty streets. I felt a freedom I have rarely felt before. Maybe its because I let go of the dream that had me in binds, it might have been witnessing, it could be the belief in loving myself I have found, perchance it was the power plan session 12 hours earlier today.

I dont care what it was. It was glorious.

I drove to New York
in a van, with my friend
we slept in parking lots
I don't mind, I don't mind
I was in love with the place
in my mind, in my mind
I made a lot of mistakes
in my mind, in my mind

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

Perhaps I had too much drink
Maybe I smoked too much green.
It may have been the power in me.
Whatever it was - I smiled and giggled my whole way home.

if I was crying
in the van, with my friend
it was for freedom
from myself and from the land
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

By the time I hit the half-way mark, I was - as they say - giddy. I was quickening my pace, I couldn't hide the smile. And all I really thought about at that point in time, was sex. I wanted it then, and I wanted it badly. Considering the sate of mind I was in - we all know exactly what I did when I got home. But, what surprised me was my following action. Lighting my smoke, I took up residence on the porch and dialed a beautiful man in Edmonton. I wanted to hear his voice.
And my glee had misplaced itself. I wanted to hear something more vibrant. I wanted to hear something sweet. I heard neither of these things. Instead, I heard a very bored, somewhat sad, boy - caught at the moment of low emotions. Whoopsie.

The conversation lulled and peaked and lulled again, but I couldn't get off the phone. I wanted more of his voice. More of his deep culled tones. His low pitch stirred my memories in a way that I could not resist.

I want a hug like that again.

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
(I made a lot of mistakes)
all things know, all things know
(I made a lot of mistakes)
you had to find it
(I made a lot of mistakes)
all things go, all things go
(I made a lot of mistakes)

Perhaps I had too much drink
Maybe I smoked too much green.
It may have been the power in me.
Whatever it was - I smiled and giggled my whole way home.