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im reaching. for you. for someone. for something. i wish i hadnt reached for you. i wish so badly things were normal again. i can handle my pain. alone. quietly. i cannot deal with it inflicted upon others. leave me already. im better off alone. i hate that i depend upon you so wholly now. why cant i swallow my captivation for you and shut the fuck up about this idiotic love. who cares. i need nothing. i need no one. i need ana.