''Why do I rush to slow down everything?...''
Today was a bit packed...
I went to Sharas at 9.30am, she wasnt feeling so hot, so i got her her favourite - choc digestives and cherry coke lol. I bought a hot water bottle too, tried looking after her. We fucked up a bit though, i found it hard to deal with us, we almost ended again, how i spoke to her to keep us together made me feel like a bit of a mug, but shes running away when things get hard. We got on though, gave her a massage and we lazed around till 3, went to hatfield to go to jobcentre, and book gym for tomorrow. We drove to St.Albans for no reason, stopped at R-Tech which was cool then came home and watched a film before i went. I read the note taht the black dude gave her....creepy to say the least. Then another black dude who was with em on friday rang her. Holly gave him her number, for a joke, next thing he calls 4 times, she doesnt answer and says about he wants to pick her up. Apparently he tried to pick her up from work on Sunday, i saw him on friday and he looked a gimp, but its still annoying, i mean, im ok with it, unless he starts trying it on all the time. sharas freaked out anyway. Its good that even by going to the gym, we are together. Today was really good minus our blip, hopefully we can work at it, like i mean she asked me not to call or text when i got home, and i was fine, i finally got to spend time with her so i didn't, yet she called twice and asked me to text in the end lol. She looked amazing today. I know if we can work at it, it can be great again. But im just worried she might drift away and find someone new now or push me away because she wants to make a new start in life. Like - she's going away with holly for 2 weeks apparently... hmm :-( I am a bit worried though that she hasn't been round mine for nearly 2 weeks :-( I just hope we can work through this. ?Its our 7 month anniversary on saturday. I don't know what we'll do, i have no money. I love her
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I went to Sharas at 9.30am, she wasnt feeling so hot, so i got her her favourite - choc digestives and cherry coke lol. I bought a hot water bottle too, tried looking after her. We fucked up a bit though, i found it hard to deal with us, we almost ended again, how i spoke to her to keep us together made me feel like a bit of a mug, but shes running away when things get hard. We got on though, gave her a massage and we lazed around till 3, went to hatfield to go to jobcentre, and book gym for tomorrow. We drove to St.Albans for no reason, stopped at R-Tech which was cool then came home and watched a film before i went. I read the note taht the black dude gave her....creepy to say the least. Then another black dude who was with em on friday rang her. Holly gave him her number, for a joke, next thing he calls 4 times, she doesnt answer and says about he wants to pick her up. Apparently he tried to pick her up from work on Sunday, i saw him on friday and he looked a gimp, but its still annoying, i mean, im ok with it, unless he starts trying it on all the time. sharas freaked out anyway. Its good that even by going to the gym, we are together. Today was really good minus our blip, hopefully we can work at it, like i mean she asked me not to call or text when i got home, and i was fine, i finally got to spend time with her so i didn't, yet she called twice and asked me to text in the end lol. She looked amazing today. I know if we can work at it, it can be great again. But im just worried she might drift away and find someone new now or push me away because she wants to make a new start in life. Like - she's going away with holly for 2 weeks apparently... hmm :-( I am a bit worried though that she hasn't been round mine for nearly 2 weeks :-( I just hope we can work through this. ?Its our 7 month anniversary on saturday. I don't know what we'll do, i have no money. I love her
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