Lent Approaches
So Ash Wednesday is a day away, and I am nervous. I've never done anything super substantial for lent because I was never really that into it. This year...well I'm making myself nervous over it. For some reason the idea of fasting popped into my mind before I even realized that lent was approaching. I'm worried about it because I've never done such a thing. I look at my motives and wonder why I'm doing this. I want to push myself, to know what it feels like to deny myself something I want and need. I want to feel hunger, pain, inspiration, and hope. By fasting, I want to purge my body and mind of what I have fed myself as an unhealthy habit. However, I do not want to damage my body or spirit by going too far and not knowing when too much is too much. I do not want to focus on food during this time, but more so on connecting back to the earth. I feel that through some hunger we are able to feel more instinctual, more natural. I want to have a prayer in mind, but I haven't found of thought of one yet. I want to figure out what I'm ok with allowing me to eat. I want to know a prayer. I want a more spelled out plan, but I might not be able to do that. Oh well I will update.