Fat Tuesday
It's fat Tuesday, and Ash Wednesday approaches in under an hour. I have had my last of many things today. I had a mocha, a piece pot roast, a cookie, a super caffienated coffee milkshake, and lastly McDonald's fries. I bought the fries as a last fast food thing, but god they were awful! I threw 1/2 of them away after having the first half remind me just how bad they were.
So anyways, now I'm prepping mentally for tomorrow. I spent most of the day figuring out just how my fast is going to work out, if it works out. I really want it to, but I am worried about my tendencies to want to pass out when I'm really hungry. I have a plan for adjusting my plan if I start feeling like I am unable to function. I've thought about, typed up, and printed out what I will & won't eat and drink, why I'm doing this, and what to focus on while doing this. I think I'm set. :) I also am going to record throughout the day whether I'm struggling, focusing on food, or succeeding. I also either want to journal it or post a web journal of each day, so that I can look back and see my progress and my patterns through this process. I just wish that today wasn't making me so anxious.
I don't even know why I'm worried. I'm comfortable with what I'm doing, and I've done something similar for 4 days while I was very physically active as I backpacked on the Appalachian Trail. My days will not be so demanding during this time, so I shouldn't worry. I just think it's the time span of it. 40 days, over a month, seems like a long time! Oh well, here I go.
Tomorrow will be the first day of a new period for my life! :)
So anyways, now I'm prepping mentally for tomorrow. I spent most of the day figuring out just how my fast is going to work out, if it works out. I really want it to, but I am worried about my tendencies to want to pass out when I'm really hungry. I have a plan for adjusting my plan if I start feeling like I am unable to function. I've thought about, typed up, and printed out what I will & won't eat and drink, why I'm doing this, and what to focus on while doing this. I think I'm set. :) I also am going to record throughout the day whether I'm struggling, focusing on food, or succeeding. I also either want to journal it or post a web journal of each day, so that I can look back and see my progress and my patterns through this process. I just wish that today wasn't making me so anxious.
I don't even know why I'm worried. I'm comfortable with what I'm doing, and I've done something similar for 4 days while I was very physically active as I backpacked on the Appalachian Trail. My days will not be so demanding during this time, so I shouldn't worry. I just think it's the time span of it. 40 days, over a month, seems like a long time! Oh well, here I go.
Tomorrow will be the first day of a new period for my life! :)