wait its coming

[deadguttergirl]

dream, breathe, feel and become complete
stop the negativity
mourn the lost, do not dwell
make it into art if it hurts
take the anger, take the bitterness
throw it out of the window
so much of me is a mother now
I fight to learn new outlets to release frustrated
I think ive missed the individual I am
as a mom I am destructible
as a mom sadness is worse than sickness
though as a girl
especially as the girl I am
all the things that take a person apart
only help me create great art
or help me dig deeper into others minds
I am evolving
once the girl in me and the mom come together as the indestructible force I am
I will become a woman you will not dare fuck with.