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It is incredible how NOT often I update this.
So let's see. Where does one start when discussing life changing revelations?
I think I will start with Benjamin.
If there ever was someone to walk into my life and change everything, Ben is that person. I still find it 100% inconceivable that someone whom I thought I would never have a chance with, someone who was my best friend, someone who's advice I took daily and who took mine daily also, would show up at my doorstep one freezing night and sweep me off my feet and make me the happiest I've ever been in my entire life.
Everything he's done for me... I mean, I could sit here and list all the things he's done for me, but then we'd all be here a while. He's uplifted everything about me. I'm no longer under the impression that no one could ever like me. I'm no longer taken by the fact that no one would give me the time of day. He doesn't just give me the time of day, he gives me the day itself. He gives me everything he has and more when he can. Just last night he told me that I was his main motive to be a decent person, his main objective to keep his shit together which he didn't always do in the past. He said I was one of the only reasons he woke up in the morning, he said I was the only person to ever have complete and utter faith in him no matter what the circumstances. And he's right. I believe in him one hundred and ten percent in no matter what he does because I know he's well-intented and I know he does the same for me.
I'm a completely different person than I was three months ago. I'm in love, I'm incredibly happy, I've got amazing friends, and I'm even coming to terms with my father. Not in the way I'd expected... it's not as if we've made amends, but I have managed to not let him weasel his way into my emotions any longer.
I guess the basic jist of this post revolves around my newfound contentedness with everything. I'm in love with being happy.
A basic update on everything else:
My grades are still miserable, and I'm on the verge of having to take summer school so to not be a second year senior.
My mom still hates my guts and it's mutual for the most part, but my boy helps me deal with her. He's our little fight-breaker, seriously. He always breaks it up if my mom and I are dukin' it out for one reason or another.
Everything else is absolutely wonderful, unless I'm forgetting something. I've got some plans lined out for business opportunities here in the near future that could involve some serious money making and no college is necessary, so I'm happy about that. I don't have a job for the time being because I recently quit my last one, but that was for the best seeing as I was getting harrassed... definetely a good situation to get out of.
I can't think of anything else that really needs to be said aside of the fact that I AM FREAKING HAPPY and I love it. Just thought you should know.
-You are the sun, to which my eyes can not adjust.-
So let's see. Where does one start when discussing life changing revelations?
I think I will start with Benjamin.
If there ever was someone to walk into my life and change everything, Ben is that person. I still find it 100% inconceivable that someone whom I thought I would never have a chance with, someone who was my best friend, someone who's advice I took daily and who took mine daily also, would show up at my doorstep one freezing night and sweep me off my feet and make me the happiest I've ever been in my entire life.
Everything he's done for me... I mean, I could sit here and list all the things he's done for me, but then we'd all be here a while. He's uplifted everything about me. I'm no longer under the impression that no one could ever like me. I'm no longer taken by the fact that no one would give me the time of day. He doesn't just give me the time of day, he gives me the day itself. He gives me everything he has and more when he can. Just last night he told me that I was his main motive to be a decent person, his main objective to keep his shit together which he didn't always do in the past. He said I was one of the only reasons he woke up in the morning, he said I was the only person to ever have complete and utter faith in him no matter what the circumstances. And he's right. I believe in him one hundred and ten percent in no matter what he does because I know he's well-intented and I know he does the same for me.
I'm a completely different person than I was three months ago. I'm in love, I'm incredibly happy, I've got amazing friends, and I'm even coming to terms with my father. Not in the way I'd expected... it's not as if we've made amends, but I have managed to not let him weasel his way into my emotions any longer.
I guess the basic jist of this post revolves around my newfound contentedness with everything. I'm in love with being happy.
A basic update on everything else:
My grades are still miserable, and I'm on the verge of having to take summer school so to not be a second year senior.
My mom still hates my guts and it's mutual for the most part, but my boy helps me deal with her. He's our little fight-breaker, seriously. He always breaks it up if my mom and I are dukin' it out for one reason or another.
Everything else is absolutely wonderful, unless I'm forgetting something. I've got some plans lined out for business opportunities here in the near future that could involve some serious money making and no college is necessary, so I'm happy about that. I don't have a job for the time being because I recently quit my last one, but that was for the best seeing as I was getting harrassed... definetely a good situation to get out of.
I can't think of anything else that really needs to be said aside of the fact that I AM FREAKING HAPPY and I love it. Just thought you should know.
-You are the sun, to which my eyes can not adjust.-