"So where does the new-born go from here"
As ever i find the question is where to now? Whats the new direction, the new focus?. Yea this is going to be another rant if you don't like it don't read it. I've been realizing Lucifer too much, im starting to think like he talks; the same cynicism and lack of interest at whatever is going on around me. Only been climbing a couple of times but im feeling stronger than when i left, although very out of practice. Maybe all the belaying paid off after all. Still love it as much as ever although i think being on real rock will scare shit out of me as soon as i go on a trip back at uni.
Uni....there's a real uninviting prospect; im looking forward to seeing pete, Kt and the rest of the kayakers but that's all i miss. Unite and those that inhabit it became the definition of hell by the end of last year and i have no desire to ever go back. Yea it was amazing for a very brief while but shit got changed. Got really FUCKED up. Like anything else it brought new knowledge with it and new perspective but that doesn't mean it's positive. How deep the rabbit hole goes...... Also its going to be probly be my hardest year academically and im seriously thinking im not good enough. Yea im not stupid and can even look pretty sharp at times but do i have the raw talent and intelligence? Maybe just...but if i do its gonna require one hell of a lot of studying to pull it off.
Guitar seems easier than last time, although theres definitely less distractions here than at LSU and i want it more than last time which always helps. "I went to east, where the stars are strange". Determined to learn Voodoo Chile if nothing else. It sounds so beautiful and dirty on acoustic i love it. Hard though. Beatles are more catchy than i thought (never listened to them before my bad). Not as simplistic either, elenor rigby is faintly disturbing when you listen closely to the lyrics.
Uni....there's a real uninviting prospect; im looking forward to seeing pete, Kt and the rest of the kayakers but that's all i miss. Unite and those that inhabit it became the definition of hell by the end of last year and i have no desire to ever go back. Yea it was amazing for a very brief while but shit got changed. Got really FUCKED up. Like anything else it brought new knowledge with it and new perspective but that doesn't mean it's positive. How deep the rabbit hole goes...... Also its going to be probly be my hardest year academically and im seriously thinking im not good enough. Yea im not stupid and can even look pretty sharp at times but do i have the raw talent and intelligence? Maybe just...but if i do its gonna require one hell of a lot of studying to pull it off.
Guitar seems easier than last time, although theres definitely less distractions here than at LSU and i want it more than last time which always helps. "I went to east, where the stars are strange". Determined to learn Voodoo Chile if nothing else. It sounds so beautiful and dirty on acoustic i love it. Hard though. Beatles are more catchy than i thought (never listened to them before my bad). Not as simplistic either, elenor rigby is faintly disturbing when you listen closely to the lyrics.