hmmmm, the creme brulee sounds fantastic..
ahh, what else could i say?
ill say im sorry but we both know im really not
i could say id change but we both know that i cant
ill never change how i feel or what i think
ill always say the most beautiful things at the absolute worst time
and the most perfect lines a few weeks too late.
i think the other day when you flipped out i...
we both realized you had a little more left invested in us than we both had thought.
and as much as that hurt you that night, seeing how you reacted hurt me just a little bit more
to know that after all of whats been said and finially giving up on any inkling of hope that we could still be a whole instead of these two misrable halves you pulled out the rubber cement. to know that under all the ruse youve perpetuated you still dont want to see me with someone else as much as i dont want to see you with anyone else. and yes the elicited response was so severe because of whom it was but you would be lying to us both that you still wouldnt have reacted the same, albeit less extreme, had it been someone else.
and how bout those pretty words you were so vulnerable to last night?
before..i could pretend i didnt care even though i did..
i hated myself every minute of it but i did it just so i could still be close to you. i thought, who cares if its just my little dirty secret and she will never know that i still care..atleast i get to spend time with her. atleast she still puts her head on my shoulder and lets me play with her hair. atleast she still rests her head on my lap so i can trace the stars on her neck. atleast she still wants me to run my fingers along her hipbone and caress her back. atleast....
but now im giving up on faking. and if you want to act like you dont want to hear it then fine, thats your prerogative but we both know youre still going to read this. twice infact. and youre going to read everything else i write and listen to everything else i say because we both know how badly you want to hear this. i guess what im trying to say is you obviously got alot youre thinking about right now. and please dont let my beautiful words dissuade you as theyre mearly meant as food for thought. and if this appetizer cant help you stop pretending then wait for the main course.
now, could you pass me some of that dessert cause im done with kidding myself.
ill say im sorry but we both know im really not
i could say id change but we both know that i cant
ill never change how i feel or what i think
ill always say the most beautiful things at the absolute worst time
and the most perfect lines a few weeks too late.
i think the other day when you flipped out i...
we both realized you had a little more left invested in us than we both had thought.
and as much as that hurt you that night, seeing how you reacted hurt me just a little bit more
to know that after all of whats been said and finially giving up on any inkling of hope that we could still be a whole instead of these two misrable halves you pulled out the rubber cement. to know that under all the ruse youve perpetuated you still dont want to see me with someone else as much as i dont want to see you with anyone else. and yes the elicited response was so severe because of whom it was but you would be lying to us both that you still wouldnt have reacted the same, albeit less extreme, had it been someone else.
and how bout those pretty words you were so vulnerable to last night?
before..i could pretend i didnt care even though i did..
i hated myself every minute of it but i did it just so i could still be close to you. i thought, who cares if its just my little dirty secret and she will never know that i still care..atleast i get to spend time with her. atleast she still puts her head on my shoulder and lets me play with her hair. atleast she still rests her head on my lap so i can trace the stars on her neck. atleast she still wants me to run my fingers along her hipbone and caress her back. atleast....
but now im giving up on faking. and if you want to act like you dont want to hear it then fine, thats your prerogative but we both know youre still going to read this. twice infact. and youre going to read everything else i write and listen to everything else i say because we both know how badly you want to hear this. i guess what im trying to say is you obviously got alot youre thinking about right now. and please dont let my beautiful words dissuade you as theyre mearly meant as food for thought. and if this appetizer cant help you stop pretending then wait for the main course.
now, could you pass me some of that dessert cause im done with kidding myself.