arguments and casualties
i know its been such a long time since i have written anything on here. its been really buisy around here for some reason. but anyway. i hate this feeling. My brother and sister got into a huge fight yesterday about the house that we are moving into. It left my mom crying which pisses me off since she has tried so hard to make us happy. I really dont know what I'm getting myself into moving in with her and my brother and his gf. I haven't lived with him in so long so needless to say : im scared. I am scared of my brother and his temper. for years i had been the "outlet" of his anger. and i really dont know what is going to happen this time around. I'm hoping that this move will be for the better. I really do. I'm hoping that it will help us all in someway.
i miss my dad. I miss his sterness and the way he insisted in not doing something. i miss having something in common with another member of my family. Our way of thinking. i miss talking with him and knowing that he sees things my way and me seeing things his way. I dont have that connection with any other member of my family and i wish i could communicate with them my thoughts without hurting someones feelings. so instead what i end up doing is telling parcial truths or just not saying anything at all which isn't really my style. but to maintain peace this is what i have to resort to. But talking to them is like talking to a brick wall. *sigh* i hate feeling alone.
i miss my dad. I miss his sterness and the way he insisted in not doing something. i miss having something in common with another member of my family. Our way of thinking. i miss talking with him and knowing that he sees things my way and me seeing things his way. I dont have that connection with any other member of my family and i wish i could communicate with them my thoughts without hurting someones feelings. so instead what i end up doing is telling parcial truths or just not saying anything at all which isn't really my style. but to maintain peace this is what i have to resort to. But talking to them is like talking to a brick wall. *sigh* i hate feeling alone.