what dreams may come
i dreamt about him saturday night. but its not who you all would assume. this one is a secret. shhhh. we'll just call him...javi. yeah i like that javi. so i dreamt that he and i were together and that we were constantly defending our relationship cuz no one agreed with the fact that i left raul for him. i mean dont get me wrong... we were very happy together and the feeling i got was just... loved and happy. we were cuddling in the cornor just minding our own buissness and enjoying eachothers company. like we were best friends as well as lovers. it was a good dream. i wonder if its something that could happen in the future? i dont know. maybe not. i know that most of my dreams come true and it happens then that freaky deja vu thing hits me like a ton of bricks. well its something to look forward to anyway. well hopefully. so all weekend i was really depressed just thinking. doing nothing and then i realized that all week i have been cleaning and throwing the trash and everything alone and that raul hadn't done anything all week. pissed me off. then i had been with the boys from 12pm on sun till 11pm. so i was really mad... well not mad but frustrated so i got pissed and started cleaning and putting stuff away and when he showed up everything was done and he wanted to help and i was like what for. so we ended up fighting and i ended up taking off for a drive. then i realized that it was sun and it was going to be like 12 am so i headed back home and i went straight to bed so i could get up today and be on time. that was my weekend.