The year of 2010

2009 is a year imprinted on my memory as the saddest year of my life so far, but that had strictly to do with the pain and deaths of other people.
2010 is a year that I will always remember because of my own pain and sickness. It has been the year of dozens of visits to the doctor, antibiotics galore and frustration and tears because ( Read more... )

WARNING! The following is in SWEDISH! :P

Sätt ett kryss vid alla saker du gjort, eller ta bort krysset vid  något du inte gjort, och skicka det till alla dina vänner (inklusive mig). Bara kopiera detta och skicka vidare till era vänner och den du fick detta av.

I hela ditt liv:

(x) Rökt en cigarett (Men faktiskt bara fem stycken totalt i mitt liv.)

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Oh dear.

I just read some of my very old posts, from a life before Uppsala. HAHA! What was I on when I was younger?! What drug did I take - amphetamine or LSD? Or was it hormones? And can I have some now?

Posts include remarks such as:

I really like the people I'm going to a "tater party" with. Yes; po-ta-toes. I'm off to a tater party.
    *collapses ( Read more... )

Damn it all to Hades.
        I am going to be happy. No matter what the cost, no matter what the pain. I WILL get there.

I am going to be happy and I know how, I just need to cancel some courses, give my student nation the finger and stop imagining I feel things I don't really feel. And above all, I need to act more on impulse. I need to work on my ( Read more... )

I'm so frightened.

It's one of those days. You know, one of those days during which you question your existence and cannot find an answer no matter how hard you try.

Back when I was used to having those days every day, I could usually just go with the flow; pretend that the feelings would eventually go away.
        I can't do that anymore.
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This is what happens when you have a bad day.
     Then, after some wine, it gets better again. ^.^


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And once again, my hair is brown! Okay, so nature needed a little push to help me get it back, but... still. I'm not a blonde anymore! That means I don't have to act five years younger than I am...! I say it deserves to be celebrated with a glass of wine, don't you think?
      I'm going to get me one right away. *grins*
      While I'm busy doing ( Read more... )

About a month from now, I'm going to Småland. It'll be nice. I want to get away from civilisation for a while. See some pretty trees. Take a long walk. Have dinner with my parents. Drink coffee and read the newspaper. Sleep without waking up and not wanting to get out of bed because I'm tired of living the nation life.
    It's crazy! I actually ( Read more... )

I've been a good girl. I study hard, compared to last semester, I've started training, and I get enough sleep.
      So how come I feel bad? Well, probably because I'm havin a hard time eating... again... and because I really don't feel like doing any of the things I'm supposed to do. Most of my responsibilities - aside from the ones at the nation, ( Read more... )