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Tonight has been horrible! I don't know why but I am just all teary and anxious and strung up. I can't seem to sleep but I don't want to be awake. it is so frustrating. And it doesn't help not knowing what is making me so upset. Today was great. I shouldn't feel so depressed but I do. Right now I feel like I need to get away of do something drastic. I don't know. It's just bad night and more than anything I just wish I would finally find someone who I could love and have him love me in return. I want a boyfriend, badly. I keep wondering if the reason I don't have one is because I am ugly or repulsive in some manner. I just don't know.