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Sometimes I confuse myself...?
Me, the sex-crazed, horny-toad, prepubescent boy-like, always thinking about sex, always picturing everyone naked, getting dressed in front of my windows, masturbating 3 times a day, owns more porn than God itself, writing horny sex blogs, stashes sex toys in every corner of her apartment... me... well, sometimes I'd just rather not have sex. :/
Or be touched. In that way.
It's nice to turn off that part of my brain that otherwise controls my every waking thought. Sometimes I want to just cuddle. Sometimes I want to just veg in front of the tv. Sometimes I want to just go to bed beside someone without making out or fucking. Sometimes I want to pretend that sex doesn't matter to me.
Maybe this is what balance feels like.
Or
maybe this is what happens when you work in a porn shop for three years and start to realize how desensitized you've become to tits and dicks and pussy and fucking and balls and all of those things and all of those motions and words.
I like to think I know how to shut it off and turn it back on though. I watched some porn last night for the first time in awhile. I think my tastes are becoming much more narrow. I'm so bored of porn. Fucking shock me!
Me, the sex-crazed, horny-toad, prepubescent boy-like, always thinking about sex, always picturing everyone naked, getting dressed in front of my windows, masturbating 3 times a day, owns more porn than God itself, writing horny sex blogs, stashes sex toys in every corner of her apartment... me... well, sometimes I'd just rather not have sex. :/
Or be touched. In that way.
It's nice to turn off that part of my brain that otherwise controls my every waking thought. Sometimes I want to just cuddle. Sometimes I want to just veg in front of the tv. Sometimes I want to just go to bed beside someone without making out or fucking. Sometimes I want to pretend that sex doesn't matter to me.
Maybe this is what balance feels like.
Or
maybe this is what happens when you work in a porn shop for three years and start to realize how desensitized you've become to tits and dicks and pussy and fucking and balls and all of those things and all of those motions and words.
I like to think I know how to shut it off and turn it back on though. I watched some porn last night for the first time in awhile. I think my tastes are becoming much more narrow. I'm so bored of porn. Fucking shock me!