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Got fired today. Supposedly the corn beef, instead of 5oz, I weight all of it out at 10, 11 oz? impossible. and only the cornbeef, none of the other meets? was told we were missing 200 dolalrs worth of corn beef, and accused of throwing it away. i think the orde writer ordered / under ordered, we had less than usual and im being thrown under the bus.
worst timing. in a state of shock today and wandered around before applying to jobs.
anger at rob.
not my fault you and her and her wait till the last minute !!
not my fault EVRYTHING IS THE LAST MINUTE.
but shes not mine to share. shes not a possession. but i feel pushed aside or something.
last time he was over i felt very aggressive and standoffish, but was genuinly pleased and murry to see him last monday.
this is my week with her! Im helping her move stuff to her parents, not you! oh, a reward for helping her, alone time with your dick? because sharing isnt good enough and ill be in the way and you know, a fucking killjoy or something. she saw two other lovers last week. this is my week! not his to curl up with her at night.
everyone wants my gf's attention. yes im jealous. people fighting for her time.
im happy for her having support and love from these people but at the moment, resentfull. im in the wrong i know. but fuck. fucking alpha wolf bullshit.
even tori doesnt talk to me anymore. im boring i guess. kia and kat would argue otherwise.
but you know how i feel
bursting with artistic ideas and would rob a bank for art supply money.
i really hate myself.
also cannot understand why i was so unahppy last fall. this has been overall quite wonderful.
pondered laying in the road.
worst timing. in a state of shock today and wandered around before applying to jobs.
anger at rob.
not my fault you and her and her wait till the last minute !!
not my fault EVRYTHING IS THE LAST MINUTE.
but shes not mine to share. shes not a possession. but i feel pushed aside or something.
last time he was over i felt very aggressive and standoffish, but was genuinly pleased and murry to see him last monday.
this is my week with her! Im helping her move stuff to her parents, not you! oh, a reward for helping her, alone time with your dick? because sharing isnt good enough and ill be in the way and you know, a fucking killjoy or something. she saw two other lovers last week. this is my week! not his to curl up with her at night.
everyone wants my gf's attention. yes im jealous. people fighting for her time.
im happy for her having support and love from these people but at the moment, resentfull. im in the wrong i know. but fuck. fucking alpha wolf bullshit.
even tori doesnt talk to me anymore. im boring i guess. kia and kat would argue otherwise.
but you know how i feel
bursting with artistic ideas and would rob a bank for art supply money.
i really hate myself.
also cannot understand why i was so unahppy last fall. this has been overall quite wonderful.
pondered laying in the road.