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in 7 weeks I will say goodbuy to kat for at least ten months.
I am either moving back to live on the floor of my moms basement for sometime and to save up for my own place, or living with a friend of kats in taylor for 400.oo/month. Which I should be thankful for and glad but just feel weird about and like Im a fuckup and betraying my family, and not moving forward. also concerned about the heavy weed use there.
someone suggested looking into specs howard if im serious about going into broadcasting. trying to tell myself its a good idea and not going to put me further behind like college did before.
today went way to fast but it was great. got taxes done took a fun walk home on a warm sunny day, visited a few thrift stores, and rode the bus with kat to the mall, where there was suprise carnival.
and even if i cannot take the rides at all anymore, it makes me really sad/feel old, it makes me super happy to see kat enjoy them. i love that about her, when she smiles and laughs, spinning around happily.
i need to stop staying up like this, i inevitably get sad, or sadder.
kat wants to trip wen and i want to in theory but this nagging nag keeps telling it it might not be good. of course i had that before and it's been great. last time which i didnt lj about yet she was adorable. itd be nice to take one last trip together, but i worry. i guess because i feel so much is riding on her now, what if we fell ill or got bad product..
i view LJ as my own journal, i write for myself. i let others see it, because i trust them, and it used to be a way to keep in touch with friends way back in 2004. but it is for myself above all else, unlike say fb or something.
I am either moving back to live on the floor of my moms basement for sometime and to save up for my own place, or living with a friend of kats in taylor for 400.oo/month. Which I should be thankful for and glad but just feel weird about and like Im a fuckup and betraying my family, and not moving forward. also concerned about the heavy weed use there.
someone suggested looking into specs howard if im serious about going into broadcasting. trying to tell myself its a good idea and not going to put me further behind like college did before.
today went way to fast but it was great. got taxes done took a fun walk home on a warm sunny day, visited a few thrift stores, and rode the bus with kat to the mall, where there was suprise carnival.
and even if i cannot take the rides at all anymore, it makes me really sad/feel old, it makes me super happy to see kat enjoy them. i love that about her, when she smiles and laughs, spinning around happily.
i need to stop staying up like this, i inevitably get sad, or sadder.
kat wants to trip wen and i want to in theory but this nagging nag keeps telling it it might not be good. of course i had that before and it's been great. last time which i didnt lj about yet she was adorable. itd be nice to take one last trip together, but i worry. i guess because i feel so much is riding on her now, what if we fell ill or got bad product..
i view LJ as my own journal, i write for myself. i let others see it, because i trust them, and it used to be a way to keep in touch with friends way back in 2004. but it is for myself above all else, unlike say fb or something.