Easter Sunday
Happy Easter.. well we all know today is the day that our Saviour Jesus Christ rose from his tomb! yeah i do know a lot about my religion i jus dont show it as often as i shuld.. anyways.. i havent been here in ages.. and im sorry.. ill b 15 in 14 dayz.. yay! and mine and chalseas one year WOULD b in 12 days.. i think its over between us.. i dont think she wants to be with me.. and i dont much blame her.. ive been a total bitch to her and she deserves so much better.. i dont deserve something so great... even though i loved her with all my heart..imma hide the pain the best i can and let her be happy.. if shes happy i should TRY to show happiness for her too.. all i want was to b with her tho.. shes muh world.. muh life.. and it seems as if all that has went down the drain.. disappeared into something that never happened.. o well. im guessin that my broken heart will heal.. when i look her in the eyes i melt into nothing.. its like she has the magical touch! i know it seems so childish to b sittn here cryn over one person when i have the rest of muh life ahead of me but i wanted the rest of my life to b with her..and now its not gnnah be.. everyone tells me i can do better.. but i KNOW i cant! chalsea is the best for me even if we have a lot of arguments we always get thru it together.. Chalsea.. if ur readn this i want u to know that i love u now and i will forever.. i dont care what u or anyone else thinks.. i will.. u are my life and love and my hero.. when im down . u are the one i want to talk to! .. all i have to say is IM SORRY! :( !
You know what.. i really dont think i was meant to b here as long as i have been.. all the times ive cut.. ive wanted to go thru with it.. but then theres always Kristin to stop me.. for some reason i think shes my guardian angel.. i know corny but yeah.. she is ALWAYS there to stop me from my crisis.... "Sometimez I wonder what I would do, if you didn`t know me and I didn`t know you. Who would I cry with or laugh til the end ? Where would I be without my best friend? < thats to krittin.. hehe thanks girl for bein here..
I feel like such a fuck up.. and i know i am no matter what anyone tells me.. i jus KNOW that i am.. what have i ever done to make ANYONE happy? nothing.. no one is ever satisfied with me.. theres always SOMETHING that someone finds in me thats not right or good enough.. i mean damn.. am i that bad of a person? i try so fuckin hard to be a good friend.. a good GIRLFRIEND.. a good daughter.. and it seems to me that im not good at any of those things.. i guess God put me here tho to be a fuck up and teach people things... NOT TO BE !
this is also to chalsea:::::::: i found tHe Reason for -» me
to change who i used to be
the reason to start over new
and the reasOn is ---» you
*Don't wAstE your timE On mE
yOur already the voicE insidE
MY hEAd .... i mIsS yOU Chalsea.. please jus listen to me.. i love You!
well im tired of boring u people with my broken hearted troubles.....
You know what.. i really dont think i was meant to b here as long as i have been.. all the times ive cut.. ive wanted to go thru with it.. but then theres always Kristin to stop me.. for some reason i think shes my guardian angel.. i know corny but yeah.. she is ALWAYS there to stop me from my crisis.... "Sometimez I wonder what I would do, if you didn`t know me and I didn`t know you. Who would I cry with or laugh til the end ? Where would I be without my best friend? < thats to krittin.. hehe thanks girl for bein here..
I feel like such a fuck up.. and i know i am no matter what anyone tells me.. i jus KNOW that i am.. what have i ever done to make ANYONE happy? nothing.. no one is ever satisfied with me.. theres always SOMETHING that someone finds in me thats not right or good enough.. i mean damn.. am i that bad of a person? i try so fuckin hard to be a good friend.. a good GIRLFRIEND.. a good daughter.. and it seems to me that im not good at any of those things.. i guess God put me here tho to be a fuck up and teach people things... NOT TO BE !
this is also to chalsea:::::::: i found tHe Reason for -» me
to change who i used to be
the reason to start over new
and the reasOn is ---» you
*Don't wAstE your timE On mE
yOur already the voicE insidE
MY hEAd .... i mIsS yOU Chalsea.. please jus listen to me.. i love You!
well im tired of boring u people with my broken hearted troubles.....