Blegh... again
So in a certain respect, things suck. I'm a weepy ball of messed up hormones no thanks to this ridiculous birth control... mix in a little paranoia and the whole thing just sucks.
A lot of things suck actually. But right now I'm pretty drained of all ability to move or care. I'm in one of those really down, depressing moments that come out of nowhere. There's no real reason for it but certain things trigger it. I was in the middle of doing aerobics on the Wii Fit and then boom, all motivation and energy just GONE. I hate it. It's beyond simple willpower. And that's annoying. There's sadness or anxiety over something particular, and then there's that sucking void that comes from some sort of imbalance. It doesn't help that I keep messing up with the pills. I'm sure if everything else was going well I'd still find something to latch onto to be depressed about. But when things are reasonably stressful or bad, well you get the picture.
Bah, I'm just making myself more miserable thinking about it. I'm just tired of feeling bad. Starting to get a little resentful too, which is not helping matters. *sigh*
A lot of things suck actually. But right now I'm pretty drained of all ability to move or care. I'm in one of those really down, depressing moments that come out of nowhere. There's no real reason for it but certain things trigger it. I was in the middle of doing aerobics on the Wii Fit and then boom, all motivation and energy just GONE. I hate it. It's beyond simple willpower. And that's annoying. There's sadness or anxiety over something particular, and then there's that sucking void that comes from some sort of imbalance. It doesn't help that I keep messing up with the pills. I'm sure if everything else was going well I'd still find something to latch onto to be depressed about. But when things are reasonably stressful or bad, well you get the picture.
Bah, I'm just making myself more miserable thinking about it. I'm just tired of feeling bad. Starting to get a little resentful too, which is not helping matters. *sigh*