So I am in a bad sleep habits place. (I refuse to use the term sleep hygiene, cause ew) Usually regardless of prior night's sleep I am up with the baby kid and just get on with my day. Well for the last week or so I have been napping from 10-midnight then getting up and doing stuff online til past 3 then crashing or reading and starting it all ( Read more... )

Yea I suck,but you all read anyway. weird ( Read more... )

For everyone that was subjected to my angst last week, I apologize. Some of the stuff posted was melodramatic and while true not the whole truth.

On that note how about the question meme. Got a probing, interesting question? Ask away. Comments are screened. Let me know if you want it unscreened.

I have been very disjointed recently. Calm and happy in the morning, freaking out at lunch, exhausted late morning and afternoon, then unable to sleep a full night. Arghh. Things are better than they were. But it still feels pretty rough.

I think my muse is taunting me. She will pop up and throw out the loveliest, most beautiful ideas, then run off and hide under a hidden rock. Err...thanks. Really. Inspired lack of motivation is so much fun ( Read more... )

I think time flows like water. Fast. Slow. Cold. hot. Controlled by the structure of a river, raging out of control through a flooded gully. Contained and accounted for or slipping futilely through my fingers. Yep that last one about sums up where I am at and have been. For a moment it seems held in my cupped hands, til I realize it is slipping ( Read more... )

Friday -- Terminal BIOS error on laptop
Monday -- dying ipod
Wednesday -- dead Ipod

Steve's zune is currently mia
The lack of ipod, or another form of portable music is making working out at the gym excruciating.

So terminal (almost) angst ridden procrastination leads to panic leads to more angst more panic, self induced all nighter. (Not to mention early morning Bios FAIL on the laptop)

ARGGGHHHHH!!!
OMG we DIE now!!

Anyone who's been there, and their loved ones, knows this is bullshit. Meaning everyone needs help. But often that is easier said than done. Finding professional help is, usually, a necessity. (if you disagree, /shrug, we can discuss in another venue/post) However sometimes getting that help is a problem in and of itself, for many and varied ( Read more... )

Like I said, there's a lot in my head right now. Some grey and fuzzy, some dark and twisty and most of it pretty fucking confused. I've been answering questions lately a lot with "Not much" and "I'm fine". Translation: Fairly fucked up. (and yes, today's posts were brought to you by the number 5 and the word fuck ( Read more... )