life is like a bad dream

[darkelfdelila]

i dont want to be in my life. i want to wake up. help me wake myself up. i dont want this anymore. i want something to wake up to. but i dont have that. everyone else seems like they have what they want. or if they dont then they have something to back up what they dont want that they have. or they dont have what they want because they dont want

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What did I miss?

[woodoelfopansy]

You are all sad now and I am clueless. See what I meant by I miss everything. I could have been there to help you through whatever is making you this sad or to keep your mind from it whether it be by getting you really circled or just changing the subject lots. I guess I will just have to learn to deal with not being able to know what is going on in your everyday life. I will miss that. I will not loose you though.
One more thing... Stop! Look around. See how great you were doing with everything. You were doing so well. Don't let some stupid guy or stupid guys get you back to where you were before. Stop it! Please. You need to keep going down the road you were on. Turn this car around and go back down that road! Do it now! Hurry before its too late. I don't really know if that made sence I just woke up.

Bebo.

[frimples85]

OK, I don't understand the part about me. But, that doesn't matter right now. I'm so sorry that you feel this way. I wish I could help you, but we both know how good I am at that lol. I just want you to know that you can't go back to how you were. Think about how you felt when you started to succeed, remember that feeling? Good. Now, do you really want to go back to the way you were before you had that feeling? I really hope not. I love you too much to watch you go through that again. Cuz that's all I can do, is watch. You are in control, not me. I just hope you make the right decision. I love you my darling sister. Mana

yes i know

[darkelfdelila]

i know i cant go back to how i was, and i dont want to. but i cant really stop it if my heart is in control. even if it leads me back to where i was. my heart is stronger than my brain. if my heart wants to morn and fail while at it, my brain cant do anything to stop it. i will do my best to not get back to where i used to be. i hated it there. love you both and thanks for caring. Babs