life is like a bad dream

[darkelfdelila]

i dont want to be in my life. i want to wake up. help me wake myself up. i dont want this anymore. i want something to wake up to. but i dont have that. everyone else seems like they have what they want. or if they dont then they have something to back up what they dont want that they have. or they dont have what they want because they dont want anything. like my sister.im just tired of feeling alone. i did the not being with anyone bit for as long as i could take it. but now im forced to keep going with it. and i just want my being alone to end already. i miss having someone to hold me or kiss me just cause they want to. not because they want something out of it. i dont know what else to say.
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do you care how i feel
do you want me around
do you want to see my face
the one thats always gonna be there
i wont ever leave im here for you
do you notice how much i need this
why would you notice you dont even care
i know non of this ryhmes but i dont care right now
i want you to look into my eyes
and see everything that i hide
i want someone to see it
but noone seems to care
i have a beautiful soul but nobody cares to look
i want this to sound good but it doesnt really matter
i want to write what i really feel
so i guess i just will
i want you to notice when im not around
but how would you, you dont even know me
i want to run away from this night
i want it all to restart so i can do it over
but if i could do that why not restart the whole year
i want it all back the happiness i had
but it was all a false happiness
so what good would it do
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ok i figured i would stop it didnt sound anything like a poem
i cant write right now. it will all sound jumbled. so i wont. but now you all have something to read. have fun, babs